Random Thoughts, My Ex Spent Some Time With Me Last Night

I am 42 now, divorced with three kids. I grew up next door to my grandparents and my single aunt who lived with them. She was always strange, and quite frankly a bitch to everyone. Not likeable. She had a small business framing pictures and cleaning up old pictures, freshening them up for clients. She went to an art school instead of college.

Now comes the difficult part. When I was in high school I caught her kissing her employee. Another woman. They were KISSING. From kissing I saw my aunt hold her employees boob in her hand. I turned and left without being caught. So this is a secret I have kept since that day.

Others know, I'm sure. But no one talks about it. She is just a bitch. Sorry, if that upsets other lesbians. Being 72 and alone has to be a bad place. I'm divorced, I have friends, but I have three daughters, and not pushing them but I have let them know I want grandchildren. Whatever it cost to be pregnant, to have a man run and ruin my life, it just can't be as bad as my aunt's lesbian experience. Honestly, I would have hated being a lesbian. Better a bad man than no man. Even if he divorced me for another woman. I can't turn him down when he comes for old times sake and after he's done with me, we talk about his other woman.

Yesterday was a day when my mother had to talk about her sister. How she never found a man.