Ever feel that all of life's problems are bottled up inside and you shouldn't ever let them out. Yet you know this is fucking you up mentally. You know that it is causing you problems but it has been so long bottled up that even if you did want to release some of it, one would end up killing someone. Every day I look at people, every day I notice things about each and everybody. Most of them I picture killing. I picture their problems, their flaws, their blindness to the world. I have no where to release these feelings, no where to turn. It is not a feeling of suicide, but I feeling of pure and complete anger. A feeling that clouds your vision and distorts your thoughts. This is what I feel every day. This is disease I have to live with everyday. One might think I should go get help and talk to someone about this, well I have. It does nothing for me. They are just as fucked up as myself. I end up solving more of their fucking problems then of mine. I have tried to get help, many times, so it is not the matter of the "wrong doctor" or anything like that. Like I said, no one can help me. This is the first time I have found a place like this. A place to let people know my feelings, my hate, my anger, my disgust. I feel like I have a mask over my soul. A mask that will always hide this true me. A mask that no one can or will take off. No one sees me, no one hears me, they hear what I need them to and that is it.