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Women Only
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Straight Female / 25
Unlocking The Code Of Selfless Pleasures
I was like many young college women, looking for love in all the wrong places. I went out but my instincts kicked in, and as soon as it got uncomfortable I shut down. I talked the talk but I did not walk the walk. I didn't really understand the expression some of the girls used, that they got 'lucky'.
It wasn't until I was out of college and living alone in an apartment when the spell was broken. My coworker who has two small children, one an infant at the time, and her complaint was that her husband kept pressuring her and she didn't 'feel' it. She expressed his attitude as being 'he was going to enjoy her body, and she was going feel good by pleasing him'. Maybe two babies in eighteen months had 'ruined' it for her.
At night, alone with my finger, I played back what she told me. That's how it worked, you weren't supposed to enjoy it, 'he was supposed to enjoy it, what you get out of it is the rewards that come with pleasing him'. It was an entire mind game, please him, make him happy, give him sex for his pleasure, and you can have a man of your own. You suck cock, because it pleases 'him'.
Sex was cold and brutal, the word 'fucked' came from being 'fucked', you are the loser. As in 'you're fucked'. Your body is made for fucking, he has the dick for fucking you. I gave up my body, not to just anyone, to this one particular man who kept pestering me. Enjoy it, I told him, and in return I would please him. I 'pleased' him, with all the things I could think of, from surrendering my body to him, to being there for him, to cooking and all the other chores. When I gave up my body to him for him to impregnate me, I felt lightning, now I was really pleasing him.
My work friend, she has settled down to him, her kids are now walking and one is out of diapers. She did the things to please him, she 'mothered' him and was nurturing. We talked about our place, our 'lot' in life, a man's 'possession', ironing and vacuuming. If he is happy, the marriage is happy. It felt 'good' to have him impregnate you.
In return, in addition to the pleasures of pleasing him, we are learning how to use our bodies for our own enjoyment. Without a book of references, just another woman to talk with, we talk about the most intimate of intimate feelings, of complete penetration. It's psychic, it's mental, then it goes 'off' and uncontrollable. It's the feeling that comes with pleasing him, with an out of body experience. Not often, not always, it happened when you enjoy your body and 'use' him for it. You wake up from your near death experience and all you want to do is please him.
It wasn't until I was out of college and living alone in an apartment when the spell was broken. My coworker who has two small children, one an infant at the time, and her complaint was that her husband kept pressuring her and she didn't 'feel' it. She expressed his attitude as being 'he was going to enjoy her body, and she was going feel good by pleasing him'. Maybe two babies in eighteen months had 'ruined' it for her.
At night, alone with my finger, I played back what she told me. That's how it worked, you weren't supposed to enjoy it, 'he was supposed to enjoy it, what you get out of it is the rewards that come with pleasing him'. It was an entire mind game, please him, make him happy, give him sex for his pleasure, and you can have a man of your own. You suck cock, because it pleases 'him'.
Sex was cold and brutal, the word 'fucked' came from being 'fucked', you are the loser. As in 'you're fucked'. Your body is made for fucking, he has the dick for fucking you. I gave up my body, not to just anyone, to this one particular man who kept pestering me. Enjoy it, I told him, and in return I would please him. I 'pleased' him, with all the things I could think of, from surrendering my body to him, to being there for him, to cooking and all the other chores. When I gave up my body to him for him to impregnate me, I felt lightning, now I was really pleasing him.
My work friend, she has settled down to him, her kids are now walking and one is out of diapers. She did the things to please him, she 'mothered' him and was nurturing. We talked about our place, our 'lot' in life, a man's 'possession', ironing and vacuuming. If he is happy, the marriage is happy. It felt 'good' to have him impregnate you.
In return, in addition to the pleasures of pleasing him, we are learning how to use our bodies for our own enjoyment. Without a book of references, just another woman to talk with, we talk about the most intimate of intimate feelings, of complete penetration. It's psychic, it's mental, then it goes 'off' and uncontrollable. It's the feeling that comes with pleasing him, with an out of body experience. Not often, not always, it happened when you enjoy your body and 'use' him for it. You wake up from your near death experience and all you want to do is please him.
