It's Been Too Long

I'm divorced for 4 years now. My husband left be saying sex wasn't good with me. Not only that he gave me details, in depth details on how bad I am at it. I don't really enjoy sex, I don't orgasm, while it feels really good most times; except anal but I do that too, I just don't orgasm. My girlfriends from high school on always talk about what great orgasms they have. With my ex I stopped even faking it. I did just lay there and let him do whatever he needed to do.

So I haven't had sex in 4 years, well actually almost 5, the last year he was screwing someone else, his current wife. Everytime he comes over to do something in the house, he tells me in detail how great she is at sex, and how she cums so hard. I just let him praddle on. I'm actually missing it now. I want sex, I'm very shy, I think sometimes too shy to just "pick up" a guy, much less to get naked in front of a stranger.

I don't know how, but I want a man to have sex with me. I honestly feel pent up need and urge, I just have no idea how to get a man that I can take time with before and relax, then when I'm comfortable get naked for him.

I really need it, OK I'm going to say it. I need cock! I think for the first time in my life I NEED it.