Straight Female / 40
Recently Separated
After being married for 16 years, my husband and I decided to separate. We sighted our own reasons and all seemed legitimate. For me, there was no more spark, no more excitement, no more fun. Life had become way too routine and way too ‘yup, that is how our life goes.’
In one of our heated, late night discussions, he screamed at me ‘why the fuck don’t you suck my dick anymore?’ I went completely silent as I didn’t have an answer for him. But after pondering it for a minute I said ‘I don’t know? I enjoy giving head. I enjoy your cock. But I do not know why I stopped doing it.’ We both sat there and said nothing. The discussion had ended in the blink of an eye.
That night I did not sleep much. I realized what he has said was true. This was on me. As an aside, there were other issues between us as well. For example, he loved cooking dinner a couple of nights a week, but over the years, he stopped doing it. The point here is we are both in the hooked for changing.
A couple of days later, he and I spoke on the phone. We had a calmer discussion and we decided to make a list (both the goods and the not goods) of the things that led us to separate. A few days later we gave each other the list.
One common theme was our lack of attraction to each other. Yes, we both had changed physically, so I understand this issue. With this though, I had realized he stopped flirting, being naughty, complimenting me, giving me innocent touches as he walked by, giving me a smile or eye contact. At the same time, I had realized so many people were doing all of those things to me. It was a confusing couple of days for me as I did not know what to make of it.
A few weeks later, I saw an a picture and social media post of him with the caption of ‘finally cutting loose from a recent difficult situation.’ I was crushed. I guess this is how this was going. I decided to find my own fun.
I did what I thought would give me the best chance of hooking up quickly - I created an account on that site that rhymes with hinder. I went all in. Within a couple of days I had all of the attention I needed. I started chatting and I eventually met a couple of guys. I had found something new, different, not routine and I found my self a little too.
These dates, although I am not really a slut, brought back my desire to suck cock. I did it after every date I went on for a couple of months. A few guys got to fuck me too. What I realized was something very simple. I felt like my husband didn’t earn me giving him pleasure because he did not ever made me happy or gave me pleasure. It sounds cold, but this had been the case for a few years.
So current day, we are still amicably separated. I moved into a newly created basement apartment at my parents house and he stayed in our house. We share the mortgage and the upkeep of the house. He has his life and I have mine, with the plan to divorce in the future. By the way, getting divorced is very difficult.
He is dating and so am I. I have probably gone overboard the last 10 months with how many first dates I have had, but I am okay with it. I am happy. I feel like I have my soul back. I am doing great. And yes, I still fully enjoy giving head, be it the first date or the second or third.
For me,
In one of our heated, late night discussions, he screamed at me ‘why the fuck don’t you suck my dick anymore?’ I went completely silent as I didn’t have an answer for him. But after pondering it for a minute I said ‘I don’t know? I enjoy giving head. I enjoy your cock. But I do not know why I stopped doing it.’ We both sat there and said nothing. The discussion had ended in the blink of an eye.
That night I did not sleep much. I realized what he has said was true. This was on me. As an aside, there were other issues between us as well. For example, he loved cooking dinner a couple of nights a week, but over the years, he stopped doing it. The point here is we are both in the hooked for changing.
A couple of days later, he and I spoke on the phone. We had a calmer discussion and we decided to make a list (both the goods and the not goods) of the things that led us to separate. A few days later we gave each other the list.
One common theme was our lack of attraction to each other. Yes, we both had changed physically, so I understand this issue. With this though, I had realized he stopped flirting, being naughty, complimenting me, giving me innocent touches as he walked by, giving me a smile or eye contact. At the same time, I had realized so many people were doing all of those things to me. It was a confusing couple of days for me as I did not know what to make of it.
A few weeks later, I saw an a picture and social media post of him with the caption of ‘finally cutting loose from a recent difficult situation.’ I was crushed. I guess this is how this was going. I decided to find my own fun.
I did what I thought would give me the best chance of hooking up quickly - I created an account on that site that rhymes with hinder. I went all in. Within a couple of days I had all of the attention I needed. I started chatting and I eventually met a couple of guys. I had found something new, different, not routine and I found my self a little too.
These dates, although I am not really a slut, brought back my desire to suck cock. I did it after every date I went on for a couple of months. A few guys got to fuck me too. What I realized was something very simple. I felt like my husband didn’t earn me giving him pleasure because he did not ever made me happy or gave me pleasure. It sounds cold, but this had been the case for a few years.
So current day, we are still amicably separated. I moved into a newly created basement apartment at my parents house and he stayed in our house. We share the mortgage and the upkeep of the house. He has his life and I have mine, with the plan to divorce in the future. By the way, getting divorced is very difficult.
He is dating and so am I. I have probably gone overboard the last 10 months with how many first dates I have had, but I am okay with it. I am happy. I feel like I have my soul back. I am doing great. And yes, I still fully enjoy giving head, be it the first date or the second or third.
For me,
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