My Fantasy! Need Some Help

I know this will sound strange to some but for many years I have wanted sex with a man. I like sex toys and fucking myself up the ass I like to lick my cum off my fingers. I have countless fantasies about sex with hung men and groups of men fucking me.
My wife does not know about this but for many years I have watched gay porn and on a few occasions I have had sex with other men in hotel rooms when I was traveling with my job.
Mostly I looked for men to fuck me in the ass. I don’t mind to suck a nice. Ick but I am looking for some very intense hard ass sex. A lot of hard fucking and anal abuse from other men. A big cock shoved up my ass hard rough anal sex r**e bondage and a good hard still hung man to use me for hours and leave me goes and dripping cum.
My fantasy is to have two hung men all over me and one up my ass and one in my mouth and I want to try a Do in the ass. Two cocks up my ass at the same time. Take me out in the woods force me to my knees tie me to a tree and fuck my mouth and make me swallow your cum. Shove butt plugs up my ass and talk nasty to me and use me however you like I t is my fantasy and I know it will never happen but I like to jack off and fuck myself thinking about it
Anyone want to respond. Please be serious and keep your childish remarks to yourself. I want hard rough sex from hung men. Let me hear from you if you can help me out