Dressing Once Again

First of all let me say I am a 64 year old divorced man. Like some teenage boys I always liked feminine things, panties, bras, pantyhose and whenever I had the chance I started trying on my older sisters things. She was two years older and her things fit perfect on me. That went on for several years then eventually I got into girls, got married then divorced and before long I was living way out in the country all alone. It wasn't long before the urge came back to dress and before I knew it I had a complete wardrobe of panties, bras, pantyhose thigh highs, skirts, tops and heels. The desire to dress like a Woman got stronger and stronger and it wasn't long before I was totally feminine except at work. At night I dressed and was the Woman and began using toys on myself and started wondering if I would ever get the real thing with a man. I am wondering if there are other men in the same boat as me, I know I'll probably get some nasty feedback but I feel more like a Woman than a man when I dress and there is way more to my confession!