Love To Have Them Played With

Just like the title says. I’m a short brunette 5 foot 4- 140lbs. Big butt and a pair of double Ds. My boobs by far are the first things people are attracted to. I got married at 25 and have been with a few guys before marriage. It wasn’t until a recent incident that I have not technically cheated. I haven’t fucked any other guy. But I have let a few guys get under my shirt and play with my tits. I was leaving the grocery store and was in the parking lot when a you guy walked up to me said something and then reached out and pulled my shirt down and exposed my tits. I sat there in shock and I didn’t realize that he was rubbing my tits and I was letting him. He kept telling me as i he squeezed them that I shouldn’t have flaunted them if I didn’t want them to be played with. I was put between the 2 cars and the guy mauled locked and sucked my tits. In a few minutes he left I put my girls away finished up rushed home and begged my husband to fuck me. He did give it to me rough and hard. I was wearing a v cut shirt with a bra my boobs really stick out. I didn’t think I was teasing anyone. I was a bit confused because as violated as I was I felt excited. I liked that they guy took what he wanted. I have expressed this to my husband a few times and asked him to be a little more aggressive. He tries but is acting is horrible. I have found my self wearing skimpy tops no bra short skirts g strings when I go out with the girls or to the grocery store. I like the feeling of someone starring at me trying to see my tits or up my skirt. I did have an older gentleman recently at Barnes and Noble grab my tits and slip his fingers in my pussy and ass. We where at the corner of the store and during the afternoon it gets slow. He talked to me for a while and as we where talking he kept staring at my chest. I told him he could feel them if he wanted but I liked it a little rough. He squeezed my tits and had a hand up my skirt. He got about 5 minutes of finger and tit time. He begged me to come to his car. I wanted him to force me to his car. Not to ask me. He should have taken my hand and pulled me along to his car. When there make me do things I shouldn’t be doing.
I don’t know why I have started acting like this but I get horny thinking about this. Sex with my husband is good but I need the thrill. One of these days il end up here telling about how I was taken by multiple guys and used as slut. I have even flashed the ups and mailman. I would like a man or men to take me and use me like a fuck doll. I’m on the verge of bad things happening and I can’t control myself.