Discovered My Problem After I Got Married

I was always uncomfortable with boys and later men getting close to me. I was 31 when I had my first sexual experience. It was too personal and I became clingy and jealous. He was 'fed up' with me, but in a turn around he said he would marry me but I had to get over my jealousies.

At one point a few months later mt now husband told me to get a friend, preferably female. I had such a friend but I had never introduced her to him, out oof jealousy that he might like her more than me.

He ignored her, and our friendship. Under his nose things were beginning to happen. What were once friendship kisses, hugs, became intense and outright sexual. Until we were having sex two times a week, in my house. It was during this special affair that I slowly realized I was lesbian all along.

It wasn't a shock, it answered so many questions. We continued behind his back. Until one day I just opened up. I expected him to react badly, but he said 'see there, you found your problem'. He isn't the jealous kind, he won't give me up, but he doesn't interfere with my sex affair.

I don't want to be set free either.