Changed My Mind

In high school when I was 17 I thought I might be gay. I started having an attraction to other boys. I wanted to find out but I was terrified about being outed. There was a park in the city that was known for being a gay hook up spot. I started going there and quickly identified a bathroom as having a lot of traffic. I checked it out and found the men to be much older. And not shy, I witnessed several sexual acts between men. Over maybe a month I slowly began to participate. I managed to give a couple of blow jobs and allowed a man to suck me off as well. I actually found I enjoyed it.
One specific day I was near the bathroom and a man came jogging by. He was maybe 30, tall, muscular and HOT! He gave me a glance as her ran by. As I was walking to the parking lot the man was standing beside an SUV. As I walked by he spoke to me and we chatted. He came right out and asked if I would like to go for a drive. I quickly said "YES". He parked in a secluded spot. We both took off our pants and I laid down in the seat with my head in his pap. He had a very large, beautiful cock and I began giving him a blow job. He caressed and played with my ass cheeks. My own cock was getting hard and when he slipped a finger in my ass hole I nearly shot my load. I was so horny I began sucking like crazy. He grabbed my head and told me he was cumming. He filled my mouth and I just kept sucking as I swallowed his cum. I admit at that point I thought 100% I was gay. I loved it.
Before he dropped me off he invited me to his house on Sat evening for a small meet and greet of guys. I was nervous but decided to go. When i got there he had 3 friends with him. He knew my age but allowed me to have a beer anyway. The guys were all around his age and nice. At one point the guys suggested we go to the deck and hit the hottub. They all laughed when I said I didn't bring trunks. They all stripped down and I followed. He had a large hottub and we all got in. Hands were all over me under the water. My friend was the first to sit up on the edge of the hottub and start stroking himself. I got the hint and started sucking his cock. The other men got up on the side and expected the same. I suddenly realized I wasn't attending a party, I was the party. I moved around the hottub sucking all their cocks. After some time my friend suggested we take the party inside. We all dried and went into the bedroom. One of the men sat at the head of the bed. They put me on my stomach with my head between his legs. As I started sucking someone spread my ass cheeks and I felt lube being poured on my ass hole and a finger inserted. After lubing me up well my friend got behind me. The other 2 men grabbed my ankles and spread my legs wide. Now we refer to my friend as the "guy I thought was my friend". I stated earlier he had a large cock. He started shoving that big thing in me and he wasn't gentle. As I screamed he managed to get balls deep with just a few hard pushes. He was reaming my ass as my ankles were held wide and my head was being held down. My ass hole was on fire and it hurt like hell. He reamed my ass hard and they all were very verbally abusive as he fucked me. Finally he held his cock in me and I felt his warm cum in my guts. It didn't end, they all took turns on me and all of them treated me the same. They finally let me up, I dressed and left.
My ass hole was so sore for a week. The first couple of days even my mother saw me moving as if I were sore and asked if something was wrong. I made up my mind then gay sex wasn't quite for me.