My Baby Fever Is Real

I am 27, single, never married. Since Christmas I have this recurring dream. I'm with a baby, nursing, Christmas morning, the other kids tearing open their Christmas g*fts. I look up at my husband, and I freeze and wake up. My husband is my boss at work.

I've whispered I love you a thousand times, when he tells me things like if I didn't love you, I melt inside. He's married, a lot older. I see him at work and I hold my stomach, I want a baby so bad. I loose myself in the mirror dreaming about being pregnant.

I spent Christmas day with him and his wife, their kids who are junior high age. His wife asked me if I had feelings because it was written all over my face. I sat on the sofa with her baby albums, her telling me these things come in due time, it was more common than I thought for girls to fall in love with her boss. She rubbed my ring finger telling me in time I would fall in love with an eligible man.

These feelings are not in my imagination, my belly is empty, I need to be pregnant. I don't want some eligible man, I want him to be my baby's father. I love him, not some ghost I've never met. I want mt Christmas morning with my baby in my arms.