I Wish...

I wish I could have a boyfriend to have sex with him or even a friend with benefits.
I rejected all the good guys who liked me and now I don't have anyone to date and now it is like the universe is punishing me for being ignorant.
I would even pay a guy to have sex with me but I am too ashamed only by thinking this.
It is like there is no man available to be with me,they are all married with kids or girlfriends or mistresses or they are all gay.
It seems that everyone is having sex except me, it is so depressing.
I just want to find a guy to have sex with why is it so hard to have one male only for my needs? :(