Straight Male / 45
No Longer A Minister, I Have A Secret Masturbation Confession
I was at the airport for a layover at DFW, waiting on a flight to Atlanta and a young Canadian woman sat beside me. She was unsophisticated in her dress and had a cheap watch and purse. It was a long enough time and we talked here and there. In between the small talk she said she was going to Atlanta to meet her fiancée. I had to ask questions, he was getting out of prison. She had met him in an exchange of letters. So hadn't actually met him. I was stuck, how could she be doing that?
I became protective, an instinct really. I argued against it. She told me that everyone said the same thing but they loved each other. And part of being a Christian was to forgive and be accepting. No. I did not agree with her, first came her safety. And a prison inmate that initiates a letter romance at random, is not to be trusted. She was defensive. Finally, and without ceremony, I told her I was imposing my authority on her and forbidding this nonsense. The minute it came out of my mouth I was sorry, but what was said was said and I didn't back off. I followed up with a 'you do not have permission to do this'.
Now I should add that at the time I was a young a part time Minister, and a marriage counselor in training. I had heard everything, but here I had the opportunity to stop it before it began, before the bullet was fired. I stood up and told her to follow me. I turned and looked at her until she stood and walked behind. We exited security and we went to the Air Canada counter and I bought her a ticket back to Calgary. Do not fail me, I told her. Go back to your family.
After she went back through security, she was now at a different gate and concourse, I had to use the bathroom. I stopped and when I unzipped my pants I found myself covered in semen. I had ejaculated and wasn't aware of it. In the stall it was obvious. My pants were 'wet' right where you expect it to be. I had to cover it by letting my shirttail out and judiciously covering myself. I sat in my seat to Atlanta, praying that the young woman had heeded my worry and returned to Canada.
From time to time I think of her, that lonely girl from a small home in Canada. I think of her in the most unholy way, I masturbate and with ejaculation I pray my prayers for her were answered.
I became protective, an instinct really. I argued against it. She told me that everyone said the same thing but they loved each other. And part of being a Christian was to forgive and be accepting. No. I did not agree with her, first came her safety. And a prison inmate that initiates a letter romance at random, is not to be trusted. She was defensive. Finally, and without ceremony, I told her I was imposing my authority on her and forbidding this nonsense. The minute it came out of my mouth I was sorry, but what was said was said and I didn't back off. I followed up with a 'you do not have permission to do this'.
Now I should add that at the time I was a young a part time Minister, and a marriage counselor in training. I had heard everything, but here I had the opportunity to stop it before it began, before the bullet was fired. I stood up and told her to follow me. I turned and looked at her until she stood and walked behind. We exited security and we went to the Air Canada counter and I bought her a ticket back to Calgary. Do not fail me, I told her. Go back to your family.
After she went back through security, she was now at a different gate and concourse, I had to use the bathroom. I stopped and when I unzipped my pants I found myself covered in semen. I had ejaculated and wasn't aware of it. In the stall it was obvious. My pants were 'wet' right where you expect it to be. I had to cover it by letting my shirttail out and judiciously covering myself. I sat in my seat to Atlanta, praying that the young woman had heeded my worry and returned to Canada.
From time to time I think of her, that lonely girl from a small home in Canada. I think of her in the most unholy way, I masturbate and with ejaculation I pray my prayers for her were answered.
