Straight Female / 22
I'm Nervous As Hell Going Out Into The World, Sex With A Man Scares Me
I have a lot of problem allowing men to see me naked. I have a female physician for that very reason, and frankly it is difficult for me to allow myself being treated, specifically pelvic exams.
I was first exposed in college by my roommate and a friend of hers, forcing my legs open and having a picture taken, which was shared with other girls in the dorm and some boys. Fortunately there was no face picture. In the dorm we had communal showers, it was easy to compare myself to other girls. It took me a long time to accept that I was normal, and that most all other girls were not much different. However I have a fixation of Barbie pussy, which I am sure a lot of other women have.
I am heavy in the breasts, a handful. My lover wants me to swing my breasts over her face and let her nip at my nipples as they go by. She is not as endowed and her breasts don't swing, the best you can get is having her chest heave when she is pounded, BTW I don't much like being with her or even knowing when she is getting a pounding, she just can't pass up a pounding. She loves dick.
We had a mutual full brazilian to get back to the roots of my problem. My pussy is too big, with a meaty mound and lips. Hers is quite different, she has hardly no mound, and her pussy lips are hidden between her legs. Nothing frontal. I like frontal, I like that my pussy is in full view in the mirror. I don't really know why I can only get sexual with another woman, I have fantasized about getting pounded, but when the time comes I chicken out. I don't want to submit to a r**e.
I have tried to 'pose' but I am awful at it, my hand instinctively cover my pussy and my arm covers my breasts. I think it is from being brought up like that. Just standing there naked in the mirror is sometimes embarrassing, and I'm all alone.
Let's talk about one other thing. My lover, she is inventive, she decided that she would rim me. We took a shower, and still wet, I got in the position on the bed and she ran her tongue all around my wet anus. It tickled in a very strange way and I found myself with my finger deep in my vagina. I don't understand the connection. I'm not prone to masturbation.
We graduate in a couple of weeks. And then it's out into the cruel world. I have never slept with a man of any age or had a man touch me. I know it's inevitable, but it's a nightmare. I cannot imagine myself as a forever lesbian, what I have with my lover is a college thing, like I said she loves dick and doesn't consider herself a lesbian. She does it to please me, and it all started because she wanted me to experience sex.
Too much information, I know but I needed to express it. I'm nervous about letting a man have me. But I'm assured that I will like it. I hope so.
I was first exposed in college by my roommate and a friend of hers, forcing my legs open and having a picture taken, which was shared with other girls in the dorm and some boys. Fortunately there was no face picture. In the dorm we had communal showers, it was easy to compare myself to other girls. It took me a long time to accept that I was normal, and that most all other girls were not much different. However I have a fixation of Barbie pussy, which I am sure a lot of other women have.
I am heavy in the breasts, a handful. My lover wants me to swing my breasts over her face and let her nip at my nipples as they go by. She is not as endowed and her breasts don't swing, the best you can get is having her chest heave when she is pounded, BTW I don't much like being with her or even knowing when she is getting a pounding, she just can't pass up a pounding. She loves dick.
We had a mutual full brazilian to get back to the roots of my problem. My pussy is too big, with a meaty mound and lips. Hers is quite different, she has hardly no mound, and her pussy lips are hidden between her legs. Nothing frontal. I like frontal, I like that my pussy is in full view in the mirror. I don't really know why I can only get sexual with another woman, I have fantasized about getting pounded, but when the time comes I chicken out. I don't want to submit to a r**e.
I have tried to 'pose' but I am awful at it, my hand instinctively cover my pussy and my arm covers my breasts. I think it is from being brought up like that. Just standing there naked in the mirror is sometimes embarrassing, and I'm all alone.
Let's talk about one other thing. My lover, she is inventive, she decided that she would rim me. We took a shower, and still wet, I got in the position on the bed and she ran her tongue all around my wet anus. It tickled in a very strange way and I found myself with my finger deep in my vagina. I don't understand the connection. I'm not prone to masturbation.
We graduate in a couple of weeks. And then it's out into the cruel world. I have never slept with a man of any age or had a man touch me. I know it's inevitable, but it's a nightmare. I cannot imagine myself as a forever lesbian, what I have with my lover is a college thing, like I said she loves dick and doesn't consider herself a lesbian. She does it to please me, and it all started because she wanted me to experience sex.
Too much information, I know but I needed to express it. I'm nervous about letting a man have me. But I'm assured that I will like it. I hope so.
