Trained To Be This Way

My dad basically trained me to be gay. And not just gay, he pushed me to be a sub, sissy, I guess when I was around 5 my parents divorced because dad came out as gay. On weekends with dad he treated me like a girl. He dressed me in girls clothes and I just remember his attitude that "guys like us have to please real men". I heard that over and over growing up.
As you can understand my mom kinda hated dad for embarrassing her. Around the age of 11 or 12 I started to display some of the signs I was following in dads footsteps. Mom didn't like that and sent me to live with dad full time. I barely saw her after that.
As for dad, well he started treating me more like a roommate. He was very open with his sex life. I saw many men in and out of the house, but there were a few that were there a lot. At first dad would at least go into his bedroom and shut the door but I could still hear what was happening. Around the house our usual lounge wear was pretty much a pair of panties and maybe a t-shirt. Around age 14 I started to actually see how the men were looking at me. They had been looking at me for awhile but as I got older I understood what was going through their minds. One guy in particular started to openly talk about me in front of dad. Dad was OK with it as he was very sub and only wanted to please this man. It was at that time I witnessed my first gay sex act. This man made my dad give him a blow job right in the middle of the living room as I watched. After that dad really seemed to push the "guys like us have to please real men". He stopped shutting the door to his bedroom and I saw a lot of things happen.
I guess right around that time I simply accepted it. For awhile I had been avoiding the attention I was getting at school from a few boys. I gave in and began to accept their advances. I was kind of funny seeing these so called straight boys with girlfriends sneaking around to get me alone. I started giving regular blow jobs to several boys and I was actually enjoying it. I told dad what I was doing and he seemed kinda proud at my behavior.
I was now 15 and a freshman in high school. One evening dad hinted it was going to be a special night. The man I mentioned earlier that seemed to have an interest in me came to the house. After a few minutes dad came out of the bedroom and told me to come with him. He led me into the bedroom and the first thing I saw was this man laying on the bed naked with his cock sticking straight up. He was bigger than any of the boys I had been with so far. Dad told me it was time I learned to please "men". I was OK with it, so I got on the bed and started sucking his cock. It was different than the boys at school. This man grabbed my head and was very rough trying to push his cock down my throat. He started manhandling me around the bed until he had me face down. He pulled my panties off and started probing my asshole with his lubed fingers. I spread my legs wide to give him access. He suddenly grabbed my ankles and pulled me to the side of the bed so my feet were on the floor. It was rough as he started pushing his big cock inside my virgin asshole. Dad actually watched as this guy fucked my ass. From that point on I started having sex with several of the men that came over. Its kind of strange thinking about it but I never had any sexual contact with dad. All through high school we saw each other have sex openly and even allowed 2 (or more) men use us at the same time. But we never had sex with each other.
I am still a sissy and love pleasing men no matter what they want.