One-sided Oral

30 years ago I had just moved to a new city and was lonely, with few dating options. I did a phone sex line and got connected with a black woman who lived out of town about ten miles, in a nice but cluttered one-level house. Livy was a big woman, about 10 years old than me, businesslike and extremely direct. I wasn't there very long before she said she was looking for someone to eat her pussy. I asked if I could get oral sex in exchange, and she said she usually didn't do that, but would consider doing "something" for me if I was good enough. But she was clear that she was very demanding in sex.

I hemmed and hawed for about 20 minutes, asking more about her, and she was reasonably forthcoming, but her demands were still very clear; she wasn't warming to me as a person, but treating me as a potential sex toy. I thought about it for a while and finally said I could try. She wanted more than trying, so I said yes, I will definitely do this, and she told me to sit on the floor while she pulled off her pants and spread her legs on the couch. I moved closer and she started stroking my head, then pulling it in. She gave very specific directions, and got my tongue right on her clit, but her thighs were pretty thick and her vulva large, so this basically got my face pretty wet and nearly smothered. Soon I learned I mostly had to focus on sticking my tongue out and finding a way to breathe, as she would do the rest, pulling me onto her clit. It was almost a tug of war as I squirmed between her hands and thighs, and it seemed to take forever for her to cum. She kept getting close and moaning, then telling me to move differently while squeezing my head hard, and I tried desperately to follow her commands while still getting enough air somehow. Suddenly she came really loudly and pushed me away but still held me in her big hands, then a few seconds later said "AGAIN!" and pulled me back in, demanding that I flick her hard with my tongue. She screamed SO LOUD then and shoved me away. This happened about 3 more times, and then she said "hold it still" so I just rested my tongue on her clitoris for several more minutes. She would then occasionally ask me to move slowly, then stop. then move again, then stop. She would sometimes shudder, but sometimes it wasn't clear what effect she was getting from this. Maybe she was experimenting, figuring out what ways she could use me given what I was doing.

She finally let me rest and said it was "OK" but I could definitely learn some more, if I wanted to. I was a bit disappointed by this judgment, as some women in the past really appreciated what I did, but Livy clearly had some very specific needs and it was hard to meet her standard.

I hung around a bit after that and said I would like to cum before leaving, and she brusquely told me to take my shirt off, lay it on the couch and jerk off while she watched. I asked if she would even touch me, she said no, but by watching she could see how I did it. So I spread out my thighs and slipped out my cock, taking a long time to stroke it in her general direction several feet away. She watched me closely, but refused to even let me touch her. After 15 minutes or so I squirted all over my shirt, and then she told me I could leave. I wrapped up my shirt and drove home with a cold bare chest, feeling very strange about this.

We got together two more times, and those two times she let me tit fuck her, but she really didn't seem excited by it, and made it clear that she was just letting me use her chest the way she used my tongue. She had nice large tits, but it really wasn't the same as being with someone who wanted me. Fortunately I soon found another lady to date, who in the end was a disaster, but that's another story. This was truly heartless orgasm trade with a woman who was totally in control and denied me almost all power and desire. But somehow it worked for her.