Seedy Hotel

This happened thirty years ago and every once in awhile I reflect on it and wonder if it changed me in some way.

I was a guy in my early 30's going through a bitter divorce. Began renting this small apartment in an old neighborhood as I tried to get my life back on track.

I suppose I was in the mood to lose myself and try to forget how stressed my life had become. In the neighborhood was an old hotel with a dingy bar downstairs. One Friday night after work I went in to have a drink. There was a cloud of smoke as older men in their 50's and 60's smoked cigarettes and drank beer. I sat down and had a beer. It was not the sort of bar I had gone to before but it was so down and out and anonymous it suited my state of mind at the time.

Began going there every Friday and Saturday night to drink and forget. About a month after I started drinking there this older man approached me at my table and bought me a beer. He was pudgy, balding with glasses sixtyish. He was friendly and chatted up a storm between cigarettes. At last call he invited me upstairs to his room for a nightcap. He told me a lot of the regulars lived in single rooms upstairs as it was very convenient to live above a bar. Each room had a hotplate ,dresser sink,bed,chair and closet with a large bathroom on each floor with 2 showers and toilets. I was feeling a bit drunk and lonely and accepted his invitation. In his room he made me and himself a strong whiskey and soda.

I was sitting on the chair sipping my drink when he confided in me that he loved to suck cocks and would enjoy servicing me. I was feeling so despairing that his offer did not shock me and I thought it's just a blowjob might take the edge off my situation. I nodded okay and he was quickly instructing me to lay on his bed and relax as he did the deed. I did as he said and he took my pants and underwear off. Right away he guided my cock into his mouth and soon had it stiff with his slow deep sucking. His bobbing head soon got its reward as I blew my seed into his waiting mouth. He swallowed it all then he lit up a cigarette as we chatted briefly. I told him I had to go and left. I went home and thought my God what have I done. Just a one time thing I said to myself.

Over the next few days memories of that night kept flashing in my head arousing me. I got erections thinking about how eager he was to suck me and how good it felt. Friday came along and the horny urges became too much. I went to the bar and saw him sitting at a table. He looked excited to see me which made me nervous. He waved me over and after a quick drink he asked me to go upstairs with him. My erection in my pants told me what I secretly wanted so I went. This time he wasted no time. He got undressed then undressed me. His soft body rubbed up against me in his double bed. His wet mouth and soft hands explored me all over. He gave me a wet slobbering kiss then went down my body until my stiff cock was deep in his mouth. I did not last long and my orgasm was even more intense than the first time. I fell asleep only to wake up in the middle of the night watching his head bobbing on my cock again as he finished me off once more. I left in the morning slightly hung over but feeling this strange warm feeling of release. The next night I was in his bed again for more sex and fondling. Now he was touching me and kissing me a lot before the sex and I found myself responding with kisses and touch of my own. In the next few weekends I discovered his cock never got more than semi erect as he had some erectile issues. I began sucking his cock as well and several times he was able to orgasm and give me a couple spurts of cum. The more we had sex the more I began to kiss him all over as well and perform oral on him soft or not. I would go to work and not tell a soul about my weekend escapades. It was my dark little secret as I pretended to live a totally straight life and not reveal I had an older male lover. I noticed just thinking about him made me feel all hot and sexy inside. Seeing his expectant friendly face when I arrived at the bar. A year of this and it felt like it was taking over. He wanted to see me every day and I was scared and tempted at the same time I was going completely gay. Other regulars in the bar picked up on the fact we looked like a couple smoking and drinking together and either avoided us or smirked in our direction. Finally one night I was sleeping over with him there was a loud knock on the door. 2 older men were outside and asked to come in. Both guys were regulars and burly laborer types in their 50's. My lover let them in and admitted to me he had blown both of them in the past and they were here to receive oral. The bigger of the 2 guys looked at me and said I want to cream in this cocksucker's mouth.Rather than cause a big commotion I ended up servicing both men as my lover watched. I never went back.