Discovery

At age 21 I discovered my bisexual nature. My best friend of the same age and I got high on pot together one night. I guess I was secretly attracted to him but did not realize the extent until that night when he dared me to suck his cock as he was horny. I sucked him and found myself really enjoying the taste and feel of his hard and sexy cut cock in my mouth. He shot his wad in my mouth and I eagerly swallowed it. He had me swear to never tell anyone about it as our little secret. He said it was a one time thing but several years later he asked for it again and I sucked him to climax. I noticed I often masturbated thinking about him and his cock. I got married and the feelings towards him never went away. In fact I blew him a few times during my marriage. When my marriage fell apart we ended up again in bed together. This time it went farther and he wanted me to fuck him. I fucjsd him from behind and came inside his ass and enjoyed that immensely. I fucked him here and there and gave him blowjobs on occasion for the next 5 years. He moved away with a woman and J lost contact with him. However over the best few decades I had affairs with men and gradually became more of a true bottom getting fucked and sucking their cocks. Most of my male partners were older men as they usually was my preference. I had relationships with women too that were more emotionally satisfying but mostly preferred the sex with men with 1 or 2 exceptions when I was in love with a woman. Now as a senior it is easier to date women socially though I still have sexual desires towards men especially towards cocksucking but do not want to be promiscuous any longer.