Selfish About Oral Sex

My confession is simple: I'm addicted to receiving oral sex, but I hate giving it. I put myself down as bisexual but that too is only for receiving oral sex. I'm not really sexually attracted to other people's genitals I guess, I find the idea of having a penis in my mouth revolting, and am sure I would vomit if anyone came in or near my mouth. I'm not attracted to women either, and found myself unable to eat a pussy the only time I tried. I only tried intercourse a couple times and didn't find that satisfying either. But I like being eaten out, especially if afterwards I can just lay calmly and relax. If my partner does something to make themselves come while they eat me or afterwards, I don't care, but I really can't help them. But it's been hard finding anyone who will do this when I want it.