Remembering My Early On Sexual Awakening, And Enjoying Myself Now

As a high school student I went to Colombia on a Church exchange program. I stayed with a family and attended a local school. Their daughter was exchanged to Minnesota. To get to and from school I took the public bus system. More than once I was groped on the bus, and one time I was pinned between two men and the one behind me managed to get my panties down and get his penis between my legs. But he did not manage to make penetration.

My confession is that I liked it. I wore dresses because it is a lot easier to show leg and to flash. I mostly flashed older men, workers. I got called out several times by older women. They day I almost got it I went home to relish the experience. I didn't have or even know how to go about getting some sort of dildo, I had never actually seen one either. I used household objects for self penetration, the thicker and longer the better. I didn't go for skinny things like pens or markers. I discovered my clitoris and could get myself into a frenzy. I loved having orgasms.

The family I lived with were originally Catholic who had converted to Protestantism. The local church was Protestant, and accepted all denominations. At church or around the house I was very housebroken and wore acceptable length dresses and kept myself well groomed. I couldn't get thongs, no place I shopped at had thongs in those days. I wore bikini panties and I pulled them up between my butt cheeks, anything to feel something against my butt and my vagina.

I did go home without my virginity. The man that had me was a relative of the family. He was drunk or close to it and he felt me up and I let his hands roam and didn't stop him peeling down my panties. It was a classic over the back of a chair thing, I looked back at him during the whole time he was fucking me. There were no kisses or soft words or I love you. My memory is clouded because I only got a short look at his penis. I never touched it. After the event, I did worry about being pregnant. I had read somewhere that you douche with Coke and that's what I did. I found out that you can stick the cock bottle in your vagina.

I went home none the worse for wear and by the time I finished high school I was a church girl again and looked down on the fast girls who put out while dating. I kept myself clean, that is I didn't have sex again until my wedding night. A plain vanilla missionary experience. I didn't masturbate or use any form of self stimulation. I had kids instead.

Well now that I'm in my later fifties, divorced, and I have discovered that having a hefty dildo in my vagina is pleasurable. A little bit of 'slick' on my finger makes clitoral stimulation much more enjoyable. I like orgasms, and watching women being penetrated on videos is stimulating, I like to watch hard erections penetrating. I don't do much with my anus, but I do have a butt plug I bought on line. I dream of that day when that man took my virginity. I'm sure that it has been a lifelong memory for him, being the first to penetrate an American high school virgin.