I Didn't Plan For It To Happen With My Brother. WTF

I am kinda of numb right now. My head feels like soup. I feel one part totally ashamed and two part turned on but still totally in shock. O.M.G if anyone finds out i did this with him I'll literally die.

It just happened neither of us planned it or hit on each other is was a total accident that neither of us stopped but probable should have. I have always been supper close with my older brother. He is 4 years older than me and growing up was super protective of me and always looked out for me not just at school or around the neighborhood but he also had my back even with my parents when i was out being naughty, he just always covered for me. I'll admit growing up I use to tease the hell out of him just because I was wild and thought it funny to work him up because I am honestly an attention whore. But that is what makes this crazy, even when I did that growing up, I caught him looking a few times but he never said, did, or suggested anything inappropriate whatsoever; he honestly tried to ignore it and even removed himself.

Fast forward I am home for the summer from college and he is going through a brutal divorce and is staying at home with us during the legal separation. Mom and Dad are away helping my Grandmother get her house ready for market so when I came in the house crying because I broke up with my summer fling bf he was the only one home. I was crying my eyes out and he was trying to calm me down just being a good big brother. We were just sitting an talking about how bad break up hurt. And I was being selfish about my silly summer fling break up and not even thinking about his divorce so i started asking how he was doing and coping.

He was talking but his wife, feeling lonely, and feeling like a failure and I saw him start to tear up and I felt horrible all over. So I just hugged him on the couch and we honestly both cried a little together when I notice he was getting hard from my body being pressed into his. I am 22 and i am attractive and have a good body and didn't even think about my boobs being pressed on to his chest and my face being cheek to cheek with him leaning on his shoulder. Why would I, he's my brother? And yet, there is was his cock was hard and pressing into the side of my leg.

As soon and she realized he had a hard on pressing in to his sisters leg it got super awkward and he tried to shift to hide it, and even started to I think say sorry, but I couldn't handle the awkwardness and I didn't want to shame him by making him apologize but I knew if i didn't stop him he would, and that would be super awkward. I don't know what got into my head. I know it's so fucked up and most people would see gross but it felt so right to me, I felt so close and loving for him. We were both hurting and he was hurting me more than me and I love him. Not romantically love him (I don't think) but I love him and wanted to make him feel better. So my hand went to his cock, touched it through his jeans and since we were cheek to cheek I whispered in his ear.

"Shhh... just let this happen. We both need this." I said fumbling with his belt.
"Lanny we can't. I just got carried away errections happen. We need to stop." He protested.
"Shut up" I whispered and i freed his cock from his jeans.
"Lanny, fuck, your hand feels so good but shouldn't we ..." I shut him up by kissing him and not like a sister kisses I brother but like a horny temptress kisses her lover.

Before I knew is I was giving him head on the kneeling on my knees on the living room floor sucking his dick like it was the only dick in the world that matter. He was not huge, but not small, average but so into what i was doing to him. My eye contact was killing him. I pulled off my top and rubbed his dick between my boobs. And I could tell he was close, so I got up and took by the hand and lead him to his bedroom and finished undressing and he threw me on the bed and went down on me and to was the best person ever in my life to eat out my pussy. All I could thinking was how foolish is wife was to divorce him. This man knows how to eat kitty like no one I'd ever been with. I cummed so good and then he fucked the hell out of me, first missionary then doggy and cummed on my ass and we collapsed, cuddle and fell asleep not saying a word about what we just did.

When I woke this morning he was already gone. He had tucked me in, covered me, and folded my clothes neatly in his chair. He had sent me a text that said, "I can't believe this happend but I know it did. I don't even know what to say except, pls we never tell anyone, and thank you for the best sex of my whole life."

I don't know that to say when I see him tonight. I know I sound like a slut, I am not wanting to date my brother but I honest want more sex with him and no one will be home tonight. I honestly don't know what to say to him. It's wrong but I have to have him eat me again. Sorry. I have too. I'm horrible but certain.