Regretting My First Time

In my part of the world (rural USA) i****t was relatively common, and was broadly accepted (if not endorsed) by the wider community. I personally know of two families within a few miles radius of my parents house where there are married 'cousins' who are just straight brother and sister.

I'm not saying the whole place is inbreeding, but I bet there are more than a few girls whose first times were with their brothers, uncles or even daddies. Some are more open about it than others. One of my friends used to tell me stories about how her daddy was so different to her cousin in bed. He wanted her to call him by his first name when they were fucking which I found really grown up and sexy.

I tried to seduce my daddy a bunch, wanting to be grown up and sexy, but I didn't know what I was doing and I wasn't a very sexy girl - more of a tomboy. Daddy never picked up on my attempts (or if he did he didn't act on them). My first time was disappointing - a fumble in the woods with a boy I barely knew who ignored me after. I cried for weeks, in some ways I felt like I had done the taboo thing by going outside my extended family. I know that my daddy would have made me feel special and loved had he taken my virginity instead, and I wasted it.