I Don't Want To Just Be Married Off But I Know My Parents Are Loooking

Confession is good for the soul, but difficult to do.

I confess that I am worthless and a drain on my parents. I have not completed college nor do I have a job. I spend my time with friends and this includes having sex, sometimes with more than one friend at a time. I am not a whore, I don't get paid to have sex. Neither are any of my friends. We have sex because we like it, and discovering different forms of sex or watching others have sex is emotionally rewarding.

If I was a male heir my father would have been happy with me, But I am female and he sees me as a burden. All they talk about is how expensive it is going to be to marry me off. At sixteen my mother had me checked by a doctor to make sure I was fertile and could have children so they could look for a husband. They want babies out of me, it is all they talk about. You're twenty two and where are my grandchildren.

It is hard being in this country, but my family is from another country where females are, to put it bluntly, owned. When they say 'give you away in marriage' they mean GIVE YOU AWAY. Anyway if a decent family found out about my friends and our sex parties I'm sure they would not accept me.

One day I know that I will be told that a suitable husband has been found, in India, and that he will marry me, because I am a US Citizen, and he will fill me with babies to make his mother and my mother happy. I hope he is an Engineer or a Doctor. I don't want to marry some man who has a restaurant.