Gangbang

Porn brought me to that situation and I don't regret it at all. I dared myself to do a gangbang. At first I thought of doing it with boys of my age but... at the end I preferred it with older men.
I doubted a lot and felt a lil bit insecure with it but finally I decided to look for chats and dating apps where I could find a group of men that would like to do it. It was easier than I thought, everyone was willing to do it with a college girl like me so I created a WhatsApp group chat with the interested men. I was nervous and excited at the same time because I literally didn't know anyone of them! However I decided to continue until my desire was fulfilled.
I was having chills when I arrived to the meeting place (the house of one of them) because I lied to my parents telling them that I was going to sleep at a friend's house. Once I got there they welcomed me with a smile and I found that most of them could be my father! All of them were actually +40 and I was just 18... I felt they're lust, they really wanted me.
Some of them were gentle, some of them were rough and little by little they took off my clothes and left me naked as they were around me. Many hands started to touch every inch of my skin, squeezing my tits, rubbing my clit, kissing my mouth and sucking my tongue...
We started to drink beers or whatever and everything began to get wilder. A little bit drunk as I was I saw myself surrounded by hard cocks fighting to end up first in my mouth. One of them told me "You're our doll now" as he pulled my hair and fucked my throat. I honestly wanted to cry and go home but I felt weak because of the alcohol and I couldn't do anything but staying there and meet their needs. The night was going to seem to be very long!
They took turns to fuck me hard. They're loving my teen pussy and to be honest I don't remember if they were using condoms. Every possible hole of my body was filled with a cock and it was a lil bit painful but somehow I didn't want them to stop... I loved being used like a piece of meat. In a specific moment someone said "Is like fucking my daughter" and they laughed.
My whole body was moving and it was clingy because of their cum, the sweat and their spits. I swallowed some cum too and also got some deep inside my holes, I'm sure.
At some point I started to cry inevitably because my vagina and asshole felt irritated and because my mind couldn't handle more pleasure and pain but they didn't stop at all, they were 5 men that wanted what they wanted and so it happened until they couldn't go on.
I slept surrounded by naked mature men and feeling very dirty and in pain. At 8 AM or so some of them began to leave until I stayed alone with the house owner. I barely could stand up and pissing felt like a lot of pieces of glass scratching my parts so I cried once more in the bathroom.
However it was my fault that even in that pitiful situation, I accepted to get fucked by that man in his bed... My addiction was strong.
My pussy was that loose and gaping that he could get his fist in me. To finish, he came in me and let me go without having a shower or breakfast.
This happened in January and fortunately I didn't get pregnant and although I cried and felt so much pain, I continued to do it with the same group of men once a month.
I'm a filthy college girl with no remedy...