Turning Again To A Woman But Slutty

I'm FTM Transgender. I am straight as far as I know. I want to date women. But recently, my libido is too high and there is a sudden change of preference with how I want to do sex. I suddenly felt a high need for penetration. It even grew into a deep desire to be used roughly by lots of men who are older, taller, and stronger. It became my fetish to be misgendered with disrespect to my gender, and to be manhandled and to make me realize that I can never be a man like the natural born males. I haven't tried sex with cis males yet. But I badly wanted it. I used vegetables, Eggplant is my fave, and I realized that it feels so fucking good to have my pussy stretched. The bigger the thing is, the more I'm loving it. Wearing sexy things kike bra and panty makes me wetter. Especially when men on chats call me a girl. Then we have a new director in the office who is the perfect definition of an alpha man for me. Tall, strong, daddy looks. He is bald and has deep voice. I always dream of him fucking me hard, being verbal to me and all. Contact me on my Facebook account: Nika Meryl Reyes (pic is silhouette with words Thicc Girl) ofc it's a dummy account, lol