I Am An Addict, Sexual Addict For Sex With Men

I have an issue, it is an addiction issue. I have been to counseling but it has not helped. My addiction is to dangerous gay sex. By dangerous I mean unknown to me, anonymous no name no strings attached, can be in a multiple partner environment or solo with a partner. I don't see why I should insist on condoms if I suck his dick before and after sex. I enjoy bareback sex, the rougher the better. I have an aversion to certain types of men, particularly over enthusiastic gay activists types. If they look 'gay' I won't come close to them. I look for men who are themselves in the closet and have a pent up desire for sex with a man. My preferred age range is between 55 and 75, well seasoned men who appreciate a man of their age who wants to cuddle and play, lots of kissing, oral sex and anal bareback for a finale. A large man but not fat. A heavy belly is fine, just not a fat man.

I have joined a couple of web sites and I have managed a few meetings that way. I have also met men who are passing through who are open to a sexual encounter. Motel rooms are best. Never at an address.

I met a man one afternoon pumping gas. He had a fixed up older model Camaro and I complimented him on it. I asked if I could sit in the driver's seat. While holding the gear shift in my hand he put his hand on mine. We went to a townhouse, with a garage. We spent the afternoon with gay movies and lots of kissing and bare chested hugging, nipple play and cock play, before submitting to a forced fucking. He is around but I have made a point of not contacting him again. It was a very good afternoon, he enjoyed full body intimacy as much as I do and he wanted to kiss as well. I say this only as an example.

I have also had paid for men in hotels in New York and LA when I travel. Mechanical, no intimacy, pick from the menu sex. Not rewarding at all.

I stay away from younger men, too many issues. I am not a top but I have when the man wants to have a return favor. When I do top it is always on his back, with a full embrace and full penetration. When I'm the bottom I want a man to embrace me while he is fucking me. I am not there to masturbate to a gun for hire.

I've said enough, some examples, I live in a large metropolitan area, I do not frequent gay bars or gay neighborhoods. If the first word out of their mouth is 'gay', I walk away. I don't identify with the lifestyle.