Want To Hate Him

I’m a mom of 2 married for almost 15 years had never cheated until recently. It’s very confusing and have lots of emotions about it. It started at an end of the year team party for my son’s travel ball team. Our neighbors down the street have 2 boys one 12 and one 18. The 12 year old is on my sons baseball team and the party was at our house. Lots of people and of course booze. My husband and the team dad dad turned one on once the party was close to ending. I’m 5 foot 7 slim small boobs I’m all legs and ass dirty blond have a small landing strip. I was in a bikini top and some sex denim shorts. My bikini bottoms are high cut and show some ass cheek. My husband likes for me to show off my body. He gets off having guys stare and check me out. The party had started at noon and it was close to 6:30 and the kids were almost all gone as well as most of the parents. The heat and booze had gotten to me and I sat down on a lounge. My kids and my husband had gone over to our neighbors to keep the party going. I will admit I was a sloppy mess and had fell asleep. I came to for a bit and had no top on and my bottoms where pulled to the side. I saw the older of my neighbors son standing to the side of me pulling up his shorts. He came over and fixed my top. Then I saw him walking away. I must have fallen back a sleep next thing I know my husband had helped me into the house and I passed out or better yet blacked out. I was hung over the next day as was my husband. I didn’t say anything until the following Monday o caught the older boy outside shooting hoops. We where the only ones around and I asked him if we could talk. He said sure and I kind of confronted him about what he might have done to me and started to tear up as I spoke. He said wait a minute I have a video of it. My stomach hit the floor. Whips his phone out and you can see my eyes clearly opening and closing. I stood and watched as the 18 year old yanked my shorts off pulled what looked like a beer can and sunk that fucker into me. My eyes opening and I make a rather loud moan. I do grab for him and then I hear my voice and it’s clear as day OH fuck go deeper then the same and then a bunch of moans. I didn’t have hardly any fluid in my. After watching for about 10 minutes in the drive way I hear him say he is getting ready to cum I say il swallow it. I never blow my husband let alone swallow. He has my by my hair his cock is half way in his mouth. My mouth is stretching to the limits and I see a close up and a little dribble sneak past my mouth. I gulp it down then he wiped the dribbles with his fingers and then stocks it in my kitten. That’s when I started to remember I saw him getting dressed and I had passed out again. I felt disgusted when he told me anytime I was ready for round 2 he would be more then happy. He said he should have fucked my ass that night as well. He smacked my ass and said that he liked how it jiggled. We see each other often since we are neighbors we see all of them. But I could not why the image of my mouth barely able to fit that cock in my mouth. He caught me a couple of days later taking at the recycling during the day. He told me to come over and we would watch the movie. Before I could say anything he said he would be having friends over tonight and he was editing out movie. I went over and sat down thinking I could get him to erase the video. No luck he groped and rubbed me at will. Told me if I said no he would show the whole neighborhood the video on our neighborhood chat. I had been there for a few hours in those hours I spent most of the time just in my thong. I tried hard to be mad and hate the fucker but my body broke and betrayed me as he fucked me i to multiple orgasms. Something my husband has never done and the fact that he threw that in my face as im shaking and cumming. I really remember now what it was like when I was 18 and my boyfriend could cum for day ls over and over. I spent the last hour in his bedroom on all 4s taking a beer can up my rear. It hurt like hell at first but I rubbed my self into an O and came hard with a cock in my rear. He was not gentle at all when I started cumming he licked yo the face and slammed into me like a rag doll until I felt it shoot up my rear. It’s been weeks and I’m used to getting fucked now. My ass will never get used to that beer can but i tolerate it now. I found my self texting back and sending pics back. He has me call him daddy as he fucks me senseless. I have clothing from my younger days that barely fits now and makes me prance around in them. I look like a total slut it’s embarrassing it I do it because I had sex with my husband recently and it was non eventful. When I slut it up for the neighbor boy I feel and leave very satisfied. My anxiety is down I’m in better shape all around I seem happier. Probably because I’m getting dicked down daily. Im pretty sure im one a few porn sites.