I Just Need To Get This Off My Chest

I've been back home with my husband this weekend but my recent choices have been keeping me awake at night. Sex is fine with him, we do it enough to have little ones around. Just that last week on my business trip, I felt so free to just do my own thing for once...

I flew out Monday to San Diego. I met the people there, had the obligatory tour, did the boring meetings. Come Wednesday evening, I was free to explore as I pleased. Found myself bar hopping and meeting this gentleman. I think he said he's a college student or something?

We ditched the bars to buy our own booze, then I found myself making out in his car on the beach. Then my husband called and we sat while I give him a mundane rundown of my day and wished him good night. That sort of brought me back to my senses, so I asked to just be dropped off at my hotel. He was saying what a pity because things were getting really good. I honestly felt bad and gave him road head all the way back. I swallowed everything he gave me.

Next day, I get a text from him. I didn't even realize we had traded numbers. I told him we could meet late in the night at my hotel and promised no interruptions. He arrived with plenty of liquor, our clothes just fell off, and he was railing me like some whore. It was a night full of fun. It ended in the morning with me riding his morning wood and him dropping me off at the airport.

Now I'm back home with all this guilt but honestly wondering when my next business trip is...