Her Son

My best friend’s son sent me a dick pic! I was sure it was by mistake but then I received two more one of which showed him on his bed masturbating. He has always been a great kid and I just tried to ignore it. He then text messaged me saying he fantasizes about eating me out and other acts. His mother and I visit at least four times a week and talk on the phone daily this became very uncomfortable. I asked him to meet with me that we needed to talk. I certainly didn’t want to get him in trouble and to speak to his mother was an embarrassing situation. I want to be clear here. I’m just a typical middle age woman with a mom body so I don’t deluded myself in thinking I’m a sex kitten who is in the fantasies of ANYONE let alone an eighteen year old.
He said he would pop by. When I answered the door he brazenly took me in his arms and kissed me. I tried to push him away but he is much bigger and much stronger. He held me, kissing my face and telling me how much he’s always loved me. All of this was news to me! He released me and asked that we make love. I said to him that the thought is insane. I use to take care of him, babysitting, changing his diapers. He literally begged me holding my hands, kissing them, both my palms and sucking on my fingers. I must admit that this did turn me on. He started kissing my face again, my neck and ears and before I could think he had my blouse unbuttoned undid the clasp of my bra and was sucking on my nipples. It was all so very, very wrong but I gave into his advances. It has been a long time since a man had looked at me the way he was and I willingly let him have his way with me and now have done well over a dozen times. I feel terribly guilty and cry often about what I did and am doing. Each time he comes over I feel determined to set him straight and end this nonsense but each time my resolve evaporates. I really can’t believe it’s me doing these things. I really can’t.
And I have no idea at this point how to stop it. He’s a good looking athletic young man. I can only hope that he grows tired of me and falls for some younger woman his age. The sooner the better before I have a breakdown.