Me And My Cousin

I used to go to my real cousins house who happened to be my neighbor and 4 years older than me (both of us males) to stay a few nights and hang out, one day we were up in a tree stand just chilling not hunting or anything and he was taking a piss and i Iooked and seen his cock was super thick and about twice as long as mine, I gasped and he looked and seen that I saw his big cock, I said something along the lines of "holy cow your peepee is way bigger than mine!" And he laughed as he continued peeing, after he was done instead of pulling his pants up he turned around and said "pull yours out so we can see who's bigger, thinking nothing of it I whiped mine out and sure enough only half his cock filled up his whole hand while mine didnt even fill up half a hand, he said "you'll get big like me in a few years but yours is still a very good looking dick" I said thanks and asked if I could touch his since it looked so big I wondered what it felt like, he said "yea wrap your hand around it and squeeze" so I did, it felt squishy but firm like rubber, he said to keep squeezing and letting go, at the same time he was doing it to my small cock he had to use his fingers it was too small, after 30 second or so I felt it getting harder and more erect, I had no idea what was happening especially since mine was not doing the same thing, he said "that's okay it feels really good when it's touched while it's hard, try going up and down now" so I did which felt really weird at first since it was the skin moving over his hard cock, and after another minute he asked if I would put just the tip in my mouth and it would feel even better than squeezing it, I said okay since at this point I was basically giving him control to show me what to do, after the tip was in my mouth I realized just how big his cock was, he wanted me to go deeper so I tried but couldn't get much into my mouth before gagging every time, and he said that was okay and to keep trying and that gagging is okay as long as it doesn't hurt me, he was moaning every time I went deep so I kept trying to go deeper but just couldn't, after another few minutes he said that some white stuff is going to come out and that I needed to swallow it, he said it doesn't taste the best so swallow it quickly like your taking cough medicine, I was on my knees sucking on my cousins big cock ready to swallow his load, when he gets ready he let's out some bigger moans says he's going to cum which I figured must be the white stuff, he put his cock as far back into my mouth as he could and I felt his cock throbbing and a warm fluid shooting into my Uggula, I gagged so much up to this point and threw up a little off the edge of the tree stand that when it hit my Uggula I did not gag, the cum slid down the back of my throat Shot after shot from his throbbing cock, my eyed were closed and my face tensed up since I was trying not to gag and throw up again, after he was finished he pulled it out and I gagged a little but swallowed every drop as he instructed while he was Cumming, he thanked me and Said he would give me some yugioh cards since it felt so good for him, he did give me some really good yugioh cards which got Me really excited not having an income and all to buy my own only on Christmas, so when he asked if I would do it again the next time I came over he offered some more yugioh cards first and i was more than happy to take his load for some cool cards, we would go into his closet and we would 69, when his parents checked his room we would be in the closet sucking eachother off and they would think we were outside somewhere playing, I never could cum but he sure did every single time into my throat as i swallowed, he did seem sad though that i could not cum and feel good aswell, ofcourse I became better at sucking and after a few more times he wanted to enter my ass, he said it would feel even better but it will hurt me so he needs to go really slow, he treated me so well and made sure I was always comfortable, entering my asshole very slowly and after stretching me out good he would cum in my mouth and I would swallow, I was never turned on but I enjoyed knowing that it made my cousin feel good since we were so close at the time, and the yugioh cards were a big plus, after about half a year or so I had probably swallowed 20 loads from him and he told me he had sex with a girl, I was jealous since I had felt special to him in that way, we stopped doing it after that and never really talked about it since, after a few years we moved apart and grew apart, its now 17 years later and sometimes I think back about the fun times we had and wished I was horny at the time so I could have done other stuff and really enjoyed swalllowing his cum, I would have had him throat fuck me till his balls were clapping my face if i could have, we never kissed even once neither believe it or not, he must not have wanted to but I would have French kissed him and explored his mouth if I could go back.