Lots To Get Out

The last few years as I’ve gotten older and watched my kid grow and people age around me, it’s fucked with my perceptions of reality. How time passes and how much of it we have, and seeing patterns or cycles repeat. It’s probably the midlife crisis I have lots of existential dread. I can actually feel time running out. It makes me want to have a lot of sexual experiences with my wife before we’re too old. She’s going to be 50 this year. She likes doing dirty things, but I want really dirty things, I want threesomes with another guy or girl. I want someone to dominate both of us and make us do degrading stuff in front of eachother. I want to watch her fuck another man like she’s putting on show for me. I want to spank her in front of people, and embarrass her, finger her pussy and fuck her with people watching us. When I met her I was 17, she took my virginity at 18. One of my dirties desires is wrong, but it’s only a fantasy and nothing she would ever consider. But I wish at 50 I could watch her take another boys virginity. Like a sexual sacrifice to her. I’d love to see her be sweet and motherly to him while fucking his brains out. I want her to spit in my mouth when she kisses me. I want her to make me tell her “I’m her bitch”, I want her to collar me and make me worship and praise her. I want her to force me to confess my gay wishes and encourage them. Sometimes I wish she’s be more controlling and bossy and lock up my cock and not let me jerk off for the week. And if I’m good she rewards me. I want to have threesome with a trans girl and do everything. I want her to tell me dirty stories of her fucking other guys while she fucks me. I want to wear sexy lingerie with her while we fuck, and for her to tell me how sexy it looks and feels. I want to dominate a man in front of her and fuck him while she watches. I want to watch a woman control and be forceful to her. I want to play family role playing games in bed where she’s my mommy. I want to call her my fat little piggy when I fuck her. I want to say who’s my good little piggy and have her tell me she is. I want permission from her to force myself on her one night with a safe word. I wish we had a couple friend our age that we felt so comfortable with that we could swing with. I want her to make me wear her panties and lightly tease and praise me for it. I want her to peg me. I want to tie her down and fuck her with different strap ons and simulate a gangbang for my slut of a wife.