I Wish I Could

I am for the most part very straight but I have constant thoughts about sec with other men. I am married and very happy but I want a friend to hunt with run around with and no one know that we are sexual in private.
As a young teenage I started having sex with a good friend. Started out jacking each other off then sucking dick and we didn’t mind to swallow so it was exciting to give each other oral sex.
One day he told me he thought about fucking me all the time. We talked about it for awhile then since no one was at my house we got out of our clothes and he asked if we had Vaseline and I got it for him.
He put some on his dick and asked me to rub some on my asshole. I was shocked that we were actually about to try this and just looking at his dick all hard and slick with Vaseline made me want it and we started out on my hands and knees with him on his knees behind me. Once his dick was in my ass I started to push my ass back wanting it all and he started to fuck me and I looked over at the mirror on my dresser and I could watch him fuck me and that just excited me even more.
He didn’t last very long and I almost begged him not to pull out and he came inside of me and I was already asking him to fuck me some more. He and I went down until I was on my stomach laying on my bed and his dick never came out of my ass.
I kept asking him to fuck me and he did. It took him a very long time to cum again and we really fucked good and he came deep in my ass a second time. His dick went soft and slowly slipped out of my ass and I told him no one would be home for hours and told him to stay with me and let’s leave our clothes off for awhile.
We went in the bathroom and cleaned up my ass and his dick just talking about what we had just did and we both got very hard again. He said he really would like for me to suck on his dick so I did but not before I told him I wanted him to fuck me again.
I sucked his dick on my knees in the bathroom then I stood up and leaned over the bathroom countertop on my elbows as he got behind me and put his dick up my ass. I watched in the mirror as he fucked me and watching his facial expressions as he fucked me excited me and we started talking as he fucked me and we figured out right quick that dirty talk just made it better.
He had a hold of my hips fucking my asshole good and I kept telling him it felt good and to do it harder. He would look down and watch his dick go in and out of my ass and told me it felt so good and he liked to watch his dick fuck my ass.
I could feel the cum he shot up my ass earlier drip off my nuts and that just made it that much better. At times I could feel his nuts hitting mine and I had started to drip cum out of my dick and I would reach down and get some cum on my hand then lick it off while he was fucking me.
Watching his face as he fucked me was a huge turn on for me then he started telling me he was going to cum in me and that really excited me so I started asking him to cum in me and to fuck me harder and then I asked him to get all the way inside of me when he came.
I started to cum and never touched my dick and my asshole started to squeeze his dick each time I came and that’s all it took to make him cum. He stayed in my ass a long time and then took his dick out of me and I asked him to come with me so he followed me to our spare bedroom and I laid on my back on the carpet and raised my legs and asked him to stick it back up my ass. My legs up over his shoulders he stick his dick up my ass and after a minute or so he was fucking me again and after fucking me a minute or so I began to feel the cum in my ass coming out of me and I felt it running up my back as he fucked me deep and hard. I didn’t b think he was going to cum again but after a good long while I started to cum all over myself and that’s all it took once my asdhole started squeezing his dick he started to cum up my ass.
After that he fucked me all the time almost every day and for several years I made sure he got all the ass he wanted and sometimes I had to force myself on him by ducking his dick to get him in the mood.
He and I spent most of our time outdoors so we fucked a lot outdoors and I even let him tie me up to fuck me when ever he wanted to.
We moved away from each other in our early 20’s but in our mid 30’s we met at a class reunion and the next day we went out drinking and ended up at my deer cabin sucking dick and he fucked the hell out of me and I took two big loads up my ass and wanted more. I never saw him again after that but I still remember how he fucked me and how much I enjoyed taking his cum in my ass.