How Things Have Changed 2

I confessed a while back about how things changed for me as I got older. I was a pussy hound in my younger days, then married and all that came to and end. We had kids and shortly after that sex dried up and our marriage ended. Kids are all grown and gone and I retired so I tried the dating scene and it was incredibly bad. So as I found out a lot of men watch porn as do I and I found Myself watching Gay porn and becoming aroused and more and more curious. I eventually found the right man and had my first experience giving oral and the sensation was nothing like I expected...........It was more than I imagined. Like I said before it is always risky but I always managed to meet in a public place and if we clicked we found somewhere private and I would suck him and we would both leave. I was amazed after my first post how many older men commented that they wanted to explore with another man or already have. So after a while I started meeting only one man in particular and I became his regular. This brings me to Part 2 of how things changed. We would meet maybe once a week or every other week and over time we actually became friends doing things together then back to his place where I would finish the evening sucking his cock..........swallowing then going home. This went on for a couple of months and one evening he popped the Question, no he didn't ask me to move in our get married, lol! He asked me to spend the night with him sometime and go to bed with him, we are both older gentlemen and it did catch me off guard but I said I would think about it. Well on my way home I started to become so excited at the thought I couldn't wait to tell him I would. I always convinced myself I was Bi-sexual but now admitting to myself I am a GAY man. I looked up the proper way to clean myself inside then a shower after and with plenty of lube for the first time I would be ready. I wanted the sex so bad at that point but didn't want to spend all night the first time. As weird as it might sound I also got some Kotex maxi-pads for my underwear after the fact for some cum leaking out on my way home. So we made plans and we had dinner and some drinks watched a little TV and he took my by the hand and we walked to his bedroom it was beautiful, dimly lit and soft music playing. I was already breathing so hard as he undressed me and himself, and layed a towel on the bed. I got on my stomach and felt the cool lube between my cheeks and watched as he lubed himself. He crawled on the bed on hands and knees and pushed my legs apart. I was so hot at that point I couldn't even relax a little and waited for the pain when he slowly started to push in but it never came. He was slow and gentle and in a few seconds he was holding deep inside of me. Never in my life did I ever think I would let another man penetrate me but I did and the pleasure was incredible. As he slowly fucked me until he gave me his man seed I now know I am a submissive Gay man, things have changed for me permanently. If there any other older men who have or want to explore please comment. Thank you! Oh by the way there is more but for another time!