Many Years Of Cross Dressing

So for many years I have been crossdressing. When I am super horny and alone I go and put my wife’s bra and panties on, and I love to wear a red or purple lipstick when I do this. I have
no desire to be a women. I just love to have silky panties on with a bra and a dress. When I do this I pull the panties down and masturbate like there is no tomorrow. When I am close I pull the panties up and then drop a huge load of cum in my wife’s panties. Then I will wash all the stuff I wore so that there was no evidence of my smell or the cum I left in her panties. I don’t know why I cross dress but I do know it makes me feel good and I wish I could cross dress much more. I get so hard and always have the best orgasms. I have never went in there public while cross dressing and have no desire too. The only other weird thing I love to do is wear lipstick while I am driving just to see if any pretty lady might see me and I am hopeful of some kind of reaction. Are there any guys on there for this? And what reason do you do this if you do? Also any ladies on here what would you think if your boyfriend or husband did this, what would you do? I so wish that my wife would be ok in me doing this but I know that will never happen in a million years unfortunately.