One Night Last Thanksgiving

I'm 34, so not young or innocent. I broke up with my partner after six years, very traumatic. I camped out at my folks while looking for an apartment, I could afford on my own. My parents took me to a neighbor's party. A man there got in my pants. First time and I was embarrassed. I got pregnant from that one time.

My mother guilted me into keeping the baby. I stayed with my folks, motherhood overwhelmed me, but also took me over. After the birth I told the man.

I'm now in a financial bind. I can't work and pay childcare. I don't have insurance. I had to accept child support, and insurance on my baby, and terms and conditions. I'm lonely for intimacy, He's offered but I've held out, it's not my thing.