What I Have Become

I’m a normal masculine man.str8 to all that think they know me.married for many years.have always had a very high sex drive.married two times. truly enjoy
Sexual play with my wife’s. but like most woman their sex drives were either good at the start before the marriage and then years of painful rejection or the feelings of not being wanted sexually .in reality it’s just woman in general.
When I was young I explored the adulation book stores and videos.I was sexually satisfied orally by men in the booths. then one day a black guy ask me to follow him to a motel. I touched sucked and was fucked by a man the first time . I think it was the taboo nature of the event that checked so many boxes for me.
For some time I would meet him at his house. he always fucked me. to be honest it really didn’t do much for me except feed my need for kink.
Fast foreword many years. yes on and off I have explored differs gay sex acts including letting a fully clothed gay man use my body in gay bondage acts maybe 10 sep times … this was exciting as well. I never touched him.
For over 5 years now I have been basically an on call cock sucker for a divorced guy that still enjoys woman too. he too still dates woman. but I am his oral pleaser anytime he needs relief . really started my path of oral pleasure with him. I have become an amazing oral pleasure giver for him and a few others over time that he has included and enjoys watching me please.
We are both just two str8 buddies before and after he removes his cloths and I fully and mentally undertake my transformation into his cock sucker for his pleaser. he offers to return the favor every so often and I let him because it feels his needs. But if given the choice my mental needs and physical needs are better served as a full time pleaser. I feel amazing during and after the act…
I enjoy not swallowing all of his cum till I’m close to home. Even my nipples get hard when I have his huge cum load in my mouth..
I do still love performing oral n my wife.. I guess I’m a true pleaser.
Sometimes I’m allowed multiple days in a row to do what I do best and I have swallowed hundred of his cum loads and hope to swallow thousands