Gay Urges

Divorced closeted senior man here who deals with his gay urges in a particular way. Outwardly I live a straight life and used to date women. I found that through gay porn and masturbation I could satisfy to some extent my gay needs and I got tired of pretending with women.

Years ago when I lived in a large city the gay urges would hit me and I would go to gay bars, cruising areas, adult bookstores to suck cocks, kiss, be sucked and have sex with different men. It was exciting and fulfilling.

I reached retirement age and the city I lived in became too busy crowded and expensive. I bought a home in a smaller city and adjusted to the slower pace. In this city gay cruising is limited and virtually non existent and there are no adult bookstores with booths only sex novelty shops. So I came up with an outlet.

I travel 2 or 3x a month to the big city I used to live in when the gay urges are too much for the day sometimes staying overnight. My favorite adult video store is my destination. I feel my horniness and excitement take over when I get a booth there in the back. I leave my door open and put on some hot gay porn. Being an older man in his late 60's I may have to wait awhile until I have company. Eventually a man joins me usually my age or older occasionally a younger man who likes dirty old men. Our cocks come out and stroking ensues. Since I love to suck a man's cock the most I will often orally service the man first. Quite often I give the blowjob and may not get the return favor but I am fine with that as I need a cock in my mouth the most. Hope to have the man spurt in my mouth and swallow but okay if it doesn't happen.Love being a cocksucker. Usually I will have sex with 1 or 2 men occasionally a few more over the course of the afternoon. I leave and have a nice dinner in a restaurant with a glow on my face and vigor in my step. I then decide if I am satisfied sexually with the one afternoon of action or I need to get a cheap motel and do some more cocksucking at the same place the next day.