I Swear I Am Still Straight...

Look, I'm a straight guy. Like, stereotypically masculine and I love women. The thing is, just after high school I had been drinking and a friend and I were watching porn... this girl was sucking two cocks like a master and my buddy had his hand in his lap under a blanket. He started saying he never had a blowjob until he finished and how he'd let anyone suck him off if he could cum in their mouth...

...Truth is, I picked the video, because I LOVE watching blowjob porn... but I don't really care to get a blowjob. I watch it because the girl always looks so happy sucking cock and I always fantasize about being in her place... especially when he cums, something about it makes me crazy!

So... he says he'd let anyone suck his dick... and, I didn't even say anything. I started to lean in a bit and reached for the blanket and... the moment the blanket came away he had a hand on the back of my head, pushing me down towards his hard dick.

I wish I could say I hesitated or stopped... hell, I wish I could say I just tried to get him off fast, but... my lips got to the head of his cock and I just wanted to make it the sensual, sloppy, slow, and erotic blowjob I'd watched so many porn stars give. I didn't just start sucking, I made out with his cock, kissing and licking and tasting him... I spent time tasting his balls, and wrapping my lips around the base of the shaft, feeling his cock against my face getting even harder... I lapped up every drop of precum... and by the time I got the head in my mouth I had him going nuts...

He held back and let me roll my tongue around the head and taste him for maybe a minute before his hand was on the back of my head and he was thrusting his hips... I pulled back a bit and got on my knees and finally got him down my throat, holding him there trying to lick at his shaft... and then he was up, holding my head again, starting to thrust, but this time I already had him all the way down my throat and he kept fucking my throat until he told me I was about to make it happen...

I pulled back when I felt the first spasms, getting him back in my mouth as he twitched and pulsed and just kept cumming... so much more than I've ever cum. As he was almost finished he pulled out and squeezed out just enough to cover my lips and drip down my chin.

He told me he'd get me something to spit in, but I was absolutely lost, cum drunk and held him there, looking into his eyes and rolling it around in my open mouth to show him... before swallowing every drop and licking my lips before licking him clean and sucking him until he got soft.

That was 26 years ago and it was the only time I had ever "experimented" at all... until six months ago when, over lunch, a co-worker said something about how he had a wig so if he found a guy who was willing, he would have him wear it so he could pretend it was a girl sucking him... and I went straight to his apartment with him after work... but it turned out to be more than a wig, he had me wear a miniskirt and crop top and suck him, talking dirty the whole time... and I came in that skirt without ever touching myself hearing about what a good cocksucking cumslut I was... and when I swallowed he told me to keep going or he'd get soft... I kept going and got to suck him for another half an hour and another big swallow...

I was ashamed and haven't done anything else, but... the shame has worn off and it is all I can think about...

...I'm straight, but I am desperate to suck cock!!