I Gave My Son Head And Immediately Regretted It

As the title says. My son is 17 and was having a bad go with dates. It is good to seem him try but he never seems to go anywhere. One night he came home frustrated and I got him to come sit down on the couch and I would see what was wrong. Basically he got nowhere with his dates and he never done anything and his friends did and he was frustrated with it. I consoled him and tried to make him feel better and he asked me if I would help him. I was a bit taken back and asked what he meant and he said me if I could touch it or suck it a little. I was shocked and left. I went in the kitchen and started to wash some dishes and thought about it and figured he must be desperate to ask me of all people for that, and I will admit, it felt kind of good to be wanted. Not that me and my husband have a bad relationship or sex life but you know, it feels good when someone younger shows interest.

So I went to him while he was watching TV in the living room and asked him if he really meant just suck on it or would he try more. He was adamant just for me to suck on it. Again I just found it kind of sexy being wanted and his father was gone out to his dart league so I figured ehhh why not, only once wouldn't hurt. I let him know this was one time thing and told him to get his pants off. I have never seen that kid remove his pants so quick in his life. So I got down on my knees in front of him sitting on the couch and just dove it. I thought it might be weird but I mean I had my eyes closed and it was just like any cock in my mouth, pictured it was my husbands. I was getting into it too and trying to make him finish. Before I know it he is telling me his is going to cum and I just keep going until he says he is and I feel it flood my mouth.

So thats when he said "Mom!!!" and that kind of broke the facade. I was on my knees with my wrap around my own sons cock while he is pumping his cum into my mouth. I let him finished, swallowed, asked if it was good and when he said it was amazing I said was I glad and that I was going to wash up. I went to the ensuite of mine and my husbands bedroom and washed my hands and brushed my teeth, not that I hate cum but like I said realization it was my sons cum. Then I sat on the toilet and cried because of what I had done. I contemplated making myself throw up but if my son heard that I know he would not feel good at all so I was legit torn. So I kept it in my stomach but I still felt awful about it. I don't know if he expects more even though I told him it was a one time only thing because I know I can't do it again.