I Want To Cheat Again

When I was in a relationship before I was on a hookup site called fetlife. My relationship was getting rocky and I went on there to have some fun. I chatted with guys on there, showed off my body, guys tributed me, I loved making guys cum, and some offered me money for meets and photos. I loved going on there so much it was nearly daily, I loved the attention I would never get from my bf and some extra money never hurt too. Some guys would offer me money for photos which I sometimes took. They usually would want to see my feet, my face, or something related to a kink of theirs. The other guys who offered me money wanted a sugar baby situation and some wanted sex others wanted to build a relationship using money. I went on a few dates at the time for money that I needed and they were usually with older men. One older guy I let at a restaurant was nice and he offered me money if I would go back to a hotel him but I didn't feel safe so I let him feel me up in the parking lot instead. I think the guy I cheated with the most started asking me for photos in exchange for money and then he started flaunting it and acting like he was always carrying around a lot of cash. He was not that smart and really prideful but he would always take care of on dates and shower me with attention, and he was once of the few guys in my age range. The first time I met him he wanted a blowjob in his car in exchange for some cash. I told him I'd give him a handjob and he asked to record it. As I was stroking him I grasped his cock tightly and told him as long as my face isnt in it and we ended up making out as he filmed me jerking him off. Once I made him cum he slipped some money into my shirt. We did stuff like that a few more times because while I didn't really like the guy, the sex and stuff was okay but the money was really nice. I ended up blocking him once he started asking me to dump my bf and be with him and how he would pay me to be his gf to live with him. I've had this feeling of cheating again. I kind of want to go back to him or at least go back to having some kinky fun. Maybe I just need to find a gloryhole to sit in and use cocks whenever I get like this.