Unlikely And Unplanned We Have A Very Complicated Family

In college I was taken in sex by an older student. I became jealous and clingy. He didn't want anything to do with me, I was another one night stand. I came across him with another girl at an off campus pizza parlor. I screamed at her and pulled her hair. He grabbed me from behind to control me, overpowering me completely.

A week later the girl came to see me to set things strait, she wasn't going to stop seeing him, and I was lucky she wasn't the jealous type. I was so hurt I couldn't even speak. She stood and came over to me, putting her arms around me 'your first time sweety?'

She started to comfort me, and kissed my face. And then kissed me completely on the mouth. I melted in her arms and she quickly made love to me. She stayed with me the rest of the afternoon, we talked about making love and how it was much better than having sex with him. We agreed to not tell him, and she wouldn't interfere if I needed to have sex with him.

I had sex with him one more time, he didn't refuse. But I had sex with her many more times, until I lost count and didn't care how many times we made love. It became apparent to him that we were playing around, he took advantage of it and pushed sex on me again. The third time I got pregnant. After a three way conversation with her pushing him he agreed to marry me, but refused to agree that meant he couldn't play around.

Being pregnant messed with my mind. I became overly dependent and needy. While he put up with it, she was my refuge and I slept with her at night. Living together, sleeping together every night heightened our feelings for each other. We had to admit to ourselves we had pretty much uncovered our true leanings. Saying I love you wasn't a response, it was the response to my true feelings for her. She continued to believe it was some sort of caring feelings she had, but deep down she was coming to the conclusion she was probably a lesbian and she was truly in love with me.

After college we lived together, he served out his ROTC commitment and after his time in the Air Force he became a commercial pilot. His checks still come to our account, we pay his bills, one of them is the mortgage. He fathered a girl with her, we have my son who is a freshman in college and a daughter who is fifteen. We manage all his financial matters, his checks are deposited in our account every month. We remain married.

Pilots spend a lot of time away from home and we presume he finds women when he's in some hotel. We never ask, it's none of our business. After all, that was his condition of our marriage.