Any Other Gay Men Genuinely Disgusted By Women's Bodies?

I've experienced this my whole life, even while trying to find girls attractive as a young kid. The best I could ever do was fetishize certain acts and like, the way animated porn exaggerates the most sexual parts of a woman. My idea of an appealing woman was only ever a woman so masculine she might as well be a man, or a woman with unrealistically huge breasts and other features that were just so unrealistic she was no longer a human woman. And I'm ngl that's a fetish I'm still trying to get rid of bc at this point it upsets me.

I've never found anything good to look at in the average woman's face or body. Women with clothes on, at best, blend into the background for me. I think breasts look weird and vaginas look SO fucking disgusting, I genuinely do not understand how anyone wants to get near one other than the sensation of putting your dick in there. When people talk about eating pussy I wanna hurl.

But furthermore I've specifically experienced this like, genuine sense of body horror with a lot of girls. When they have those super skinny arms and narrow shoulders in particular, it's like, almost morbidly fascinating. I hate what I'm looking at but I can't look away. I never conceptualized it quite this way as a kid but there were a handful of girls in my classes that I just thought looked so fucking weird and I couldn't put my finger on it.

I just genuinely can't comprehend why anyone wants to be a woman or to be with them. Men's bodies are better in every way.