Straight But Found Out I Like Being Bottomed

I have ED, nothing works. I am uselessly limp. My wife passed a couple of years ago. I think with her passing I don't want to have another relationship of any extent with a woman, I just feel wrong. Besides, there would be the embarrassment of another woman knowing I can't get an erection. Not many would go for me going down on them and using vibes only. It's been a couple of years now, and I can masturbate and cum that way but never get hard enough to penetrate a woman. I am in Europe a lot and in Antwerp I found myself in a trans friendly bar. Went with a person I knew. I didn't know that she was lesbian and a butch lesbian at that. However; she introduced me around, and I had a fun evening. I was hanging with some people from that crowd, both in the bar and at others, or just for dinners etc. A very attractive transgurl who was in her mid 30s, Jackee, and I spent a lot of time talking and she asked me why I never asked her out. I felt that since it was someone I wasn't long acquainted with I could tell the truth and I told her about my ED as well as my lack of experience outside of the straight sexual world. She accepted and continued seeing me often. I enjoyed her company and she was born a man, but was beautiful as a woman. I found out she had small implants, a size AA cup boob and her nipples were light pink and very puffy, really cute.

At her place after a play and dinner, she came out in a robe, it fell open a few times and I could see her tits. Finally she just said it; "Look I know about your problem down there, and it doesn't matter to me" with that she pulled my head to her chest and I started sucking on her tits. She leaned back and let me lightly caress her tiny tits and suck on her nipples. Holding my head against her chest she told me that she was not like a lot of the other "gurls". She was fully functional, though kind of small between her legs, and asked if I minded her masturbating while I nursed on her tits. I didn't mind, and she opened her robe. She was already hard, had a dark brown strip of pubic hair running from the base of her "clit" as we called it, up about 3 inches. I cold tell from her breathing she was getting more excited and I have no idea what got into me. I moved my head down to her lap and as she was using her hand I put my mouth over the tip of her cock. It was thin about an inch thick probably and 5 and a half inches long. She reached down and pushed my head down on her clit. I started bobbing up and down on it like my wife and other women had done to me. I wanted to do it for her, I wanted to please her sexually. In the last year or so with my wife I did oral on her and that's the way I felt I was doing to Jackee. I knew though I was actually sucking a cock. My first time doing so. She held my head and she shot her cum into my mouth. I swallowed it all and after she was done, she pulled my head up and we kissed. With that she took me to her bedroom.

I stripped and she fully took off the robe. Her body was so feminine looking, I guess out of habit, when she was soft she tucked her little 2 inches or so between her legs, and with her incredible looking legs, and great butt, she looked like she was a beautiful woman even with a pussy. I reminded her I can't get it up, and she said not to worry, as I already was aware . . . she could get erect. Kissing, feeling, I actually got semi hard with her and she sucked me and between my hand and her mouth I came in her mouth. She didn't swallow, instead used my own sperm to lube my butt then put some on her, now hard clit. She got between my legs, me on my back, and pulled them up and slowly and patiently inserted her cock into my ass. After a couple of minutes of it fully into me she started rocking motions. Soon she was lying on top of me, kissing, me feeling her little tits, running my nails across her back and her butt cheeks and - fucking me. I started talking to her, telling her this was my first time doing this and we were both whispering hot, dirty talk to each other. It was about 1am when she shuddered and came inside me. She pulled up on her knees, still inside me and looked. I knew it felt good but didn't realize I had cum. My sperm was all over us both. We cleaned up, and the next morning she fucked me again.

I was with her for over a month, we still talk a lot even though I'm back in the states. I'll be going back over again soon. In the meantime, I have put myself out there. I did let two men have sex with me. Not trannys, cis, gay men. I do enjoy sex, I enjoy sucking and getting fucked. For some reason I still think of myself as straight. The guys weren't attractive to me, I just wanted fucked. Jackee is perfect for me, I never told her that two gay men have fucked me. I don't want to make her stop seeing me.

She is my perfect mate for now, a beautiful woman with a big clit with which to fuck me.