I had an older cousin that m****ted me for a couple of years when I was 8-9 and he was 14-15, and I have always gotten off on it even though it fucked with me for a long time. I went to counseling and have great life and wonderful marriage, but I have no doubt that my homoerotic desires are 100% a result.
I split my cousin open at that age and I hope she masturbates to it. I know I do. That was such a cute little pussy
Often and it triggers extreme orgasms
I was a cute little fresh faced grade schooler getting forced (at first) to bottom for a small group of overly horny high-school boy's. It was my fault I'd thought after that first time because I'd bee suck'n them wearing one of my two sister's sundresses and panties. I was a faggot but didn't know it yet is all.
I'd seen my oldest 13 year old sister suck'n her older boyfriend and emulated it with the 7th and 8th grade boy's that were fascinated by a boy that looks exceptionally good in girls clothes. I liked it and sucking like my big sister was cool making my little guy tent my frilly satin panties and feel good in a way I didn't understand. Taking cock up my cheeky button was different, difficult but the cum made it feel so good. Sure I was forced a little bit that first time but luved it all the same. No regrets at all except that it ain't good for me to this day unless a heavy cumer is bareback inside me.
At 12 I was sent to kiddy jail for shoplifting a porno magazine at a newsstand. I was sentenced to a year. That was my first offense. At 12 I was a horny pervert already but I only really liked girls, preferably older ones with big tits.
The boys in the kiddy jail told me I was very pretty and girly and suggested I NOT cut my long pretty blond hair short as I had planned when I noticed they were eyeballing me. Hair cuts were every two weeks so I had to wait and was very nervous. My hair was half way down my back. It made matters worse that I was wearing a pink T-shirt when I was arrested and they brought me to the kiddy jail in that and that is what the other boys first saw me wearing.
So that first night after the officer turned off our lights (something I found out later he was not supposed to do) a small gang of the boys came over to my bunk, pulled me out from under the covers and dragged me over to the showers where they stripped me naked and forced me to suck them all off one at a time. Then something unexpected happened. I got an erection the moment that first boy, a sixteen year old, put his dick in my mouth. I still hated what he was doing. It was gross and disgusting. I was sick to my stomach. I almost puked with each load they forced me to swallow. I hated it. Yet I maintained an erection throughout. I cleaned up as well as I could and put my clothes back on grateful they didn't fuck my ass and climbed into bed. At breakfast another older boy of about 15 leaned in and whispered in my ear that he thought I was pretty and asked if he could suck my cock. Well that was unexpected. I told him yes but in the showers only. The showers were the only place there were no cameras. So we went into the showers after breakfast and there was a tiny alcove that could not be seen from the rest of the latrine and I stood there as he undid my pants and sucked me off. He told me he preferred sucking boys without pubic hair and liked my dick. I came way better than from jerking off while he caressed my ass and tickled my grateful balls.
This became a regular thing. After every meal we went into the showers and he would suck me off while I played with his hair. But at night I got my mouth gangbanged.
After a while I realized that I didn't hate sucking cock. I even offered to suck off the boy who had been sucking me off. What I had hated was the way cock was first introduced to my mouth. I think if any of those boys had at first simply offered to suck my cock in exchange for me sucking theirs, I might have been open to it.
But then a strange thing happened. I started to have fantasies about that first night. I was fantasizing about having the entire dormitory, about 120 boys age 12-17 do me hard at both ends repeatedly. I thought about this every time I got sucked off. Eventually, even though he was shy about it, I got the 15 year old to agree to join the other boys in the shower at night and suck me off while I was getting mouth fucked.
Then one day a new kid comes in and he wants to fuck my ass, I was 13 by then and the new boy was thirteen but taller and heavier than me. But he had a small cock so I agreed if he used lube. We didn't really have lube so he used soap which worked fairly well. When the other boys saw that he didn't have my shit on his cock when he was done they all wanted to have a go at it. So I ended up having my fantasy come true of getting gang banged in the mouth and ass while my "boyfriend" sucked me off.
I know I make it sound like the whole place was gay but the reality was that there were maybe about 20 of us who all engaged in these activities while the other hundred boys abstained. I was told by several boys that I was by far the prettiest and most girl boy they had ever seen. I was not aware until I got there that I was even remotely attractive and in fact my failure with girls prompted me to believe I was repulsive. So that gave me some degree of confidence that I previously lacked.
I got to the point where I didn't not care about being out, about having the whole dorm know I loved sucking cock and getting ass fucked. I had transformed into a worse pervert than I started out. I would go from bunk to bunk offering free blow jobs to all takers but again only our small circle of gay boys (I considered myself bi since I still liked girls and wanted to fuck one) took me up on it. I remember at one point thanking the leaders of the boys who forced me that first night for forcing me to be what I was meant to be in the first place and only regretted the way the started it. They had sex with each other a lot as well but I was basically the dorm slut and officially declared to be everyone's girlfriend. The other boys would steal or buy anything they could to make me more girly like perfume (I had no idea where they got that) conditioner, lipstick (I think the stole that form the secretary in the office) and girl's clothing (smuggled in from the girl's dorm at the other end of the compound). Within three months I was only wearing dresses, skirts, with crop tops, pumps, a cup bras, fishnets and high heals and my hair was ALWAYS in pigtails. My nails were long and painted red and I learned to walk swinging my hips hoping to recruit more ass fuckers every where I went.
At around the six month mark we had a new guard. Nice guy, most of the time. He had this enormous bulge and I developed a crush. I think he was around 30 and normally I wasn't attracted to guys that old but that bulge got my attention. I could not be overt but he knew I was the dorm fuck toy, slut, sissy cock sucker and I would smile at him as much as possible. Then one day he told me he had a work assignment outside the dorm area at another part of the compound. In reality he took me to a storage building where they kept spare bedding. There were mattresses on the floor and in the corner a toilet and sink. He told me I was pretty and he would be nice to me if I was nice to him. I was already salivating at the mere thought of choking on the monster between his legs. So I looked at him smiled and dropped to my knees kneeling on a mattress as he stood on the concrete floor. I undid his uniform pants and fished out his enormous soft cock and started to lick and suck on the end while I held it with one hand and played with his balls with the other. I tried to take as much as I could . He meanwhile took ahold of my pigtails and using them for handles began to pump. Five minutes later he shot his load down my grateful throat. I didn't want to take it out of my mouth and sucked for another five or so minutes as he gradually softened. I so badly wanted to choke on it for hours but he was done. He told me I was the prettiest girl he ever mouth fucked and was planning to make this a regular thing. I thanked him for the mouthful of sperm when he leaned down and stuck his tongue in my mouth. I let him lick the sperm residue out of my mouth while he painfully squeezed my girly balls for a few minutes. I didn't want him to let go of my balls and hoped he would squeeze them harder and more painfully but it didn't happen. A few days later he took me to the store room again but that time there was a table covered in sexy lingerie and dresses and a full make-up kit and mirror and light. He told me they were thank-you g*fts. We then spent the next several hours fucking and sucking and he came in me twice then I carried my g*fts back to the dorm. I didn't have to worry about locking any of them up. By that point I was under strict protection by my harem of mouth and ass fuckers.
These are my favorite memories from childhood. If I met any of those boys today I would thank them and offer my ass and mouth to them again. I was in kiddy jail for a year and then went before a judge who questioned me about my rehabilitation and asked how I would feel if I was released. That is when the following words involuntarily issued from my mouth "No thank-you your honor, I like it in jail." He looked stunned and ordered my immediate release. I was SOOO disappointed. I asked if I could go back to the dorm to say goodbye to my friends and he permitted that as I was scheduled to be released the following day. I told the boys that I was going to leave them the next day so they needed to get as much as and mouth fucking in as they could and they certainly did. Even my guard, boyfriend got involved forgoing our usual meeting place and joining the boys in the shower taking his position in my ass while I sucked off two at a time while holding the two cocks in line behind them. At one point I had two cocks squirting in my at each end all at once. Finally everyone was satisfied and I spent an hour straddling the guard with his cock up my ass as we made out. We all said our goodbyes and I had a very lonely bus trip home.
Next day I went back to that first news stand, grabbed as many porn magazines as I could and informed the owner that I was taking them out of the store and had no intention of paying for any of them. I then left the newsstand and sat down at the adjacent bus stop hopefully waiting for the police to arrive to take me back to kiddy jail. This time I got two years.
