Angst About My Mother Having Sex When I Was Growing Up

Just like coming to terms that there is no Santa Claus, one day you figure out that your mother had sex when she was young. I don't know why that really freaked me out. Thinking of my mother with a man on top of her really got to me.

I went on a weekend trip with a friend of mine and we talked about our mothers having sex. She told me that her father jumped her mother all the time and her mother talked about it. Like about the whole sex scene, penetration and sucking his dick and everything. I mean, fourteen isn't he age you want to have your mother tell you she sucks dick.

I was seventeen and the 'boy next door' was back from college. He put me on my knees and bent me over and told me to hold onto the pillow and pulled my pants down. He had me open my legs and he fingered me. At the time I didn't think of him seeing my butt hole, but hey I was being fingered. After getting me wet he stuck his dick in me. I held onto the pillow as hard as I could until he said he was over, He did not pull out, he came inside of me.

With my butt up in the air and my vagina still open he took a picture with his phone to show me. It was gross really, I wasn't shaved or anything. Nothing pretty. And my butt hole was in the center of the picture. The second picture had cum coming out of me. That's when I learned that all the porn is photoshopped, because a fucked pussy looks nothing like a pussy on the internet.

Why that night I though of my mother. Was she like me, did she bend over? How old was she when she got fucked? Did she like it? Did she know the guy? What about the man that is my father? Where did she meet him? Why did she never look for him afterwards? I mean I had just had sex, with cum inside of me and for all I knew I was on the way to being pregnant.

I had sex a lot with the boy next door all summer. I went to college broken in and ready for the college experience. I wanted sex all the time, I was really a little college slut when I got there. I was also on BC and sucked dick all the time. I was a nympho really.

But now I'm not. I am a loyal wife and mother. I suck my husband's dick and I give him pussy however he wants it. My baby is asleep when we do it, not that a little baby knows what's happening. One day I will tell my baby that I had sex when I was young and liked it. I want her to look forward to it and not angst about it like I did.