I Wish I Was Big

I am four feet eleven inches tall, just tall enough to not qualify as a dwarf. I am 93 pounds so pretty slender. My penis when erect is three and a half inches long and about an inch thick. There are only two things about me that are big, my man boobs and my hair. I wish I had a big dick. I am 18 and have never been on a date. I will graduate high school in May and I hope I will have my first date ever in college. I am shy to start with so I have not attempted to ask many girls out. Given my size I have asked out freshmen but stopped when I turned 18 last month. Seems that my reputation for being hung like a mouse has preceded me. Pretty much all the boys in gym class have spread around to all the girls how tiny my pathetic clit dick really is. It is one thing to wear tight T-shirts and then a loose button down shirt over that to hide man boobs. but you really can't do anything to hide a clit dick that won't be found out eventually. You can fuck with two shirts on but try that with a clit dick and see what happens. Anyways my nickname among the girls is tiny and they are not talking about my height and weight either. They ALWAAYS giggle when they say it. One of the junior girls I spoke to suggested that I grow my hair longer (it's already shoulder length) to make myself appealing to lesbians who don't actually like penises. I did but the extra few inches since last year have done nothing to get any of them to look at me. So the closest thing I have had to having sex is jerking off while replaying in my mind the sounds of my female classmates giggling when they call my Tiny knowing they are talking about my clit and wishing they were gawking at it pointing out how pathetic they know it is.