Bi-Sexual Male / 41
Quest For Safe Legal Exhibition
I think I was born a pervert. I engaged in golden showers as a baby. OK technically my aunt was changing my diaper when I peed in her face. I think that counts. Of course I don't remember but for years she reminded me of that fact every time I saw her and she told everyone repeatedly.
I was sexualized very young though. Without going into any details I had a lot of sexual experiences with older children and younger adults and some older adults when I was but a child myself and while technically none were consensual in nature, I enjoyed every experience I can remember, don't remember anything being traumatic and regret nothing. And before you get some strange ideas of how that affected me, no, that did not turn me into an abuser, at least not from a legal perspective.
Over the years I acquired a number of fetishes that I engaged in and until I reached 18 all of them were with older people. I want to make that clear.
My most extreme fetish, at least, the one that has always given me the most pleasure has been exhibitionism. This started in the 7th grade. I was 12 years old and I can tell you the very instant I acquired this fetish. It was 2nd period first day of school gym class. I was completely unaware that we would be required to remove our clothes in front of the other boys until the gym teacher announced it. I was the oldest in my family, both parents had been only children, Mom attended a parochial school where the girls had private changing booths and private shower stalls and Dad didn't encounter this until high school. So nobody warned me.
I was suddenly scared and nervous not having been naked in front of anyone before except my parents and doctor and the last time my parents saw me naked was in the bath tub at age five. I hesitantly stripped off all my clothes and stood there and glanced around and saw the other naked boys and realized I had a throbbing erection and one of the other boys asked me if I was a faggot. It was right then. The accusation in the form of a question was both humiliating and thrilling. I was thinking, "why yes, yes I am, may I suck your cock while the whole class watches and ridicules me?" I said nothing. I kept that dangerous thought to myself. But I think my throbbing erection answered the boys question. While I was thrilled to see all the naked boys, I was more thrilled for all the naked boys to see me naked. I was also wishing that gym class was coeducational.
Thus it started. From then on I looked for opportunities to let myself be seen. For the longest time the only real opportunity was gym class twice a week. I got an erection every time.
My next opportunity came when I was sent to my aunt and uncle's house for a weekend. Now my aunt was my mother's sister and she had sexually abused me when I was seven. My uncle, her husband had sexually abused me when I was ten. I assumed they did not compare notes and did NOT know about what the other had done. I enjoyed what my aunt did more but what my uncle did was not bad per se. So upon arrival I took a chance and the moment I got into their living room I stripped naked in front of them both and jerked off hoping they would react. They both pretended to be shocked and both scolded me for my horrible perverted act so it was obvious they did NOT compare notes which made this even more fun. I refused to comply and finished jerking off in front of them while they continued to yell at me to stop. The thrill of their reaction was delicious. Then when they both told me that I would be severely punished I asked if either was going to be severely punished for what they did to me. They pretended to be innocent in front of each other but then after a few they calmed down and had a serious heart to heart.
I spent the entire weekend naked jerking off in front of them as much as possible once while they were fucking in the living room.
Other than occasional visits with my aunt and uncle and of course twice a week gym class, I didn't not have another opportunity until I discovered a nude beach when I was 16. It was too far for me to travel to but I convinced my aunt and uncle to take me there. That was the first time I had a very large audience of both men and women. But alas I discovered that in a world where everyone else is also naked, the thrill dies. Plus no public masturbation was permitted.
Then in my thirties I discovered a place that I will not disclose where it is legal to be naked in public, in the street, shopping malls etc. and sex in public places while frowned upon is not strictly speaking a crime. I think it's like a $20 fine. And not a lot of other people are doing it and best of all it's a relatively religious country where there are lots of devout church ladies to yell at me while I jerk off in front of them. So far not one arrest on my record.
I was sexualized very young though. Without going into any details I had a lot of sexual experiences with older children and younger adults and some older adults when I was but a child myself and while technically none were consensual in nature, I enjoyed every experience I can remember, don't remember anything being traumatic and regret nothing. And before you get some strange ideas of how that affected me, no, that did not turn me into an abuser, at least not from a legal perspective.
Over the years I acquired a number of fetishes that I engaged in and until I reached 18 all of them were with older people. I want to make that clear.
My most extreme fetish, at least, the one that has always given me the most pleasure has been exhibitionism. This started in the 7th grade. I was 12 years old and I can tell you the very instant I acquired this fetish. It was 2nd period first day of school gym class. I was completely unaware that we would be required to remove our clothes in front of the other boys until the gym teacher announced it. I was the oldest in my family, both parents had been only children, Mom attended a parochial school where the girls had private changing booths and private shower stalls and Dad didn't encounter this until high school. So nobody warned me.
I was suddenly scared and nervous not having been naked in front of anyone before except my parents and doctor and the last time my parents saw me naked was in the bath tub at age five. I hesitantly stripped off all my clothes and stood there and glanced around and saw the other naked boys and realized I had a throbbing erection and one of the other boys asked me if I was a faggot. It was right then. The accusation in the form of a question was both humiliating and thrilling. I was thinking, "why yes, yes I am, may I suck your cock while the whole class watches and ridicules me?" I said nothing. I kept that dangerous thought to myself. But I think my throbbing erection answered the boys question. While I was thrilled to see all the naked boys, I was more thrilled for all the naked boys to see me naked. I was also wishing that gym class was coeducational.
Thus it started. From then on I looked for opportunities to let myself be seen. For the longest time the only real opportunity was gym class twice a week. I got an erection every time.
My next opportunity came when I was sent to my aunt and uncle's house for a weekend. Now my aunt was my mother's sister and she had sexually abused me when I was seven. My uncle, her husband had sexually abused me when I was ten. I assumed they did not compare notes and did NOT know about what the other had done. I enjoyed what my aunt did more but what my uncle did was not bad per se. So upon arrival I took a chance and the moment I got into their living room I stripped naked in front of them both and jerked off hoping they would react. They both pretended to be shocked and both scolded me for my horrible perverted act so it was obvious they did NOT compare notes which made this even more fun. I refused to comply and finished jerking off in front of them while they continued to yell at me to stop. The thrill of their reaction was delicious. Then when they both told me that I would be severely punished I asked if either was going to be severely punished for what they did to me. They pretended to be innocent in front of each other but then after a few they calmed down and had a serious heart to heart.
I spent the entire weekend naked jerking off in front of them as much as possible once while they were fucking in the living room.
Other than occasional visits with my aunt and uncle and of course twice a week gym class, I didn't not have another opportunity until I discovered a nude beach when I was 16. It was too far for me to travel to but I convinced my aunt and uncle to take me there. That was the first time I had a very large audience of both men and women. But alas I discovered that in a world where everyone else is also naked, the thrill dies. Plus no public masturbation was permitted.
Then in my thirties I discovered a place that I will not disclose where it is legal to be naked in public, in the street, shopping malls etc. and sex in public places while frowned upon is not strictly speaking a crime. I think it's like a $20 fine. And not a lot of other people are doing it and best of all it's a relatively religious country where there are lots of devout church ladies to yell at me while I jerk off in front of them. So far not one arrest on my record.
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