I Am So Ashamed But At The Same Time Im So Wet.

I got married over 2 years now to a wonderful husband who meant the world to me.
My life felt perfect when i got married and my love were shown at every level including giving up my body sexually in ways that undermined my true character.

And here i am today to make what i called a very shameful confession.

Now my shameful struggles begin with my 17yo neighbor who i'm always wetting myself over. I use to deny my feelings for this young man until i start having sleepless nights thinking about him for uncontrollable reasons. Now to add to my shame i made a very bad move when i confessed to him how i felt about him.
I could feel him gaining control thereafter.. And of course he started calling me by my first name. And because he now gets a sense of how weak i am getting toward him he started taking many immature chances.

Last summer i went to a party by his house by invitation. My husband was still at work so i went alone. This young man saw me way behind a group of people when the toast and the singing of the birthday song was taking place... He ran his hand under my skirt and he forced his finger deep into my pussy. I almost fainted the way i was frightened. He tried to do it again that same night but i make every effort to stay with the crowd.

The very latest was during the Christmas period when he came over by my house when he knew i were alone and he almost fuck me. He got me weakened and were about to strike but i got rescued by the call of his mother even though i was surrendering right at that moment.

Part of me want to fuck this youngster but another part is saying don't do it. He's already in my heart and there's no question about it. What i also know is that if he ever catches me again like the way he did in my kitchen my wet pussy will surely betray me.