Worshipping My Wife

I’m addicted to masturbating to my wife. I feel like I don’t deserve to have sex with her, so I beg her to let me jack off in front of her. I don’t think she liked it at first, but lately she’s seemed to kind of enjoy it. I think it's improved her confidence. Most of the time, I’ll finish her first either orally or with my fingers and than we get up and I get down on my knees and jerk off while she stands in front of me. I prefer if she wears some clothing while I do it. It's more humiliating that way. When I jerk off in private, that's also what I imagine.