First GF And Small Dick

A few years ago I started dating a young girl. I was her first boyfriend. She was a truly virgin. I always had a huge desire for her, but there was a problem: my cock is small. Since we had to see each other in secret most of the time, we didn't have a place to explore our relationship and get to the penetration. In fact, I was always afraid of getting to penetration because of my small dick. I always played with her pussy but I didn't let her touch my dick out of embarrassment.

She was very naughty, we played in public places like emergency stairs and she always got very wet. I even asked her what her desires were and she said she felt like having sex with two people one day. We dated for about 3 years and, believe it or not, we never got to penetration. I took advantage of her body during oral sex but I only let her touch my dick a few times, most close to the end of our relation. Not even a blowjob. We tried penetration once but because I was nervous about getting caught I couldn't continue.

At the time she was already a hottie, everyone wanted her. Skinny, white, dark hair, delicious breasts, a angel face but deep down a real slut. We broke up and I couldn't fuck her. My biggest regret. If you could see how wet she got just from kissing...
To this day I have a huge desire for her and after I found out she started dating again I started masturbating myself imagining her having a real big dick fucking her, doing everything she couldn't do in the 3 years we were together, ridiculing the fact that she dated a guy for all that time without even having fucked her. Everytime I see a photo of her in a party or with some guy I already start to jerk a lot. How I wish to get her again only to tell her I need to see she fucking big guys.